Okay. Where do I start????????
I got home yesterday from Laughlin. I know, wrong place to go so early in my quit. But, not smoking wasn't going to stop me from living my life. It is my choice not to smoke.
Well, when we arrived there, I was scared. When I got to my room, I got very scared. I thought, how do I unpack without a smoke? Well, I did. I unpacked, without a smoke. Okay, now down to play 21!!!
Sat at a table. I saw no one smoking at it! It wasnt so bad. I could do it. Uh oh........ now I'm surrounded by smokers. 1 to my left, 3 to my right...... Oh no......... Whats this??? I start coughing!!! The smokers look at me and say I'm sorry..... I tell them I'm okay, and then I leave that table.
Needless to say, thats how the whole weekend went. I didn't even crave a smoke!! It was like I had never smoked. I didn't even think about smoking. I am so proud beyond belief.
I started my quit because my hubby wanted to quit. I thought I'd make it easier on him. When we quit, I was counting down the minutes that he would give in, so that I could. I posted on here, and someone responded "that they had done the similar, but had grown into their quit."
Well, I definately have grown into my quit. I know I will never smoke. One question though................
This quit has been easy for me. Why? My initial intention was not to quit, but I got through it. My cravings were not that bad. I got through it. Now, 22 days into my quit, and I have no cravings. Not a one. I do not dream about smoking. I do not glamourize my time when I used to smoke. I do not feel I am missing anything. I dont even think about smoking, or for that, not smoking.
I do think, however, that the Nicodemon will come and slap me right in the face to say "So, you think this is easy, well take this!!!!!" I do wait for the big test. I know it will come. Someday.
I am just proud of myself. I have life. :)
[B]My Quit Date: [/B] 3/5/2006
[B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 22
[B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 679
[B]Amount Saved:[/B] $71.94
[B]Days:[/B] 1 [B]Hrs:[/B] 19 [B]Mins:[/B] 44 [B]Seconds:[/B] 12