New to this.
I am finding the daily diary and daily blogging have really been helping me to understand my thought process. Which totally stinks, by the way. My negative thoughts had become automatic. Writing about them really brings them to reality and when I look at them I can see the pattern and hopefully, out of this, I can start to break that cycle. The thought of dying is often present and at times controls my thoughts, especially when in the midst of an attack. I don't think living everyday with thoughts of dying is really living. Life is a journey not a destination, I have to remember that. Live in today. It seems a lot of work, but definitely worth it.
I am finally starting to feel better health wise. I've been out of work most of this week with pneumonia in my right lung. This is 2 times sick this month. 2 weeks ago the flu and apparently this is a byproduct of that. Out of work until I see the doctor on Monday morning. I'm surprised with all this down time I haven't had more anxiety. Only 3 attacks this week and overall anxiety less than 5.
Thanks all again for the supportive comments.