Why do we smoke?????
sometimes, it all seems so easy.
I stop smoking, I recognise the Pavlowian trigger, I stay strong, keep away from tempting situations, and KNOW why I don't smoke anymore.
So I have not been smoking for 23 days. My body is not addicted anymore.
I know my obvious triggers. I know my strategies to cope with cravings. I know why I don't want to smoke anymore. Health. Money. Wrinkles. Smell. Etc etc.
So WHY do so many start smoking again? Why, during my last quits when I gave up and restarted smoking, did I WANT TO give up- or think I did?
I had nothing to do with conscious thoughts, with lacking will. I find it horrible to think that smokers- or people who relapse- lack WILL. They are strong, good people in most domains. So why?????????
Thinking about myself:
- is it the will to be "young and rebellious" again (as I was when I started smoking?). Smoking, in our society today and when we were teens, was "againsr" the norm, was different, was refusing to be like everybody else...
- is it the will to self-destruction? Like when we put on sad music when we are sad already? To cry out for help?
- I there something about the body posture when we smoke, bent upon ourselves in an almost protective manner, that we need? A need for protection?
Now I know that the above points seem strange, and I could argue, at least intellectually, that they are all wrong. And all right. Sadly (or happily, in some cases), not everything is controlled by the intellect.
Sometimes, with my thoughts, I feel as if I am going bananas.
But I think that there are many of us here who wonder WHY. We are strong, so why is not smoking so difficult for so many...
Sorry, just feeling philosophical right now.
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