Hello all...
I'm thankful to find a place with real people to communicate with as I start my journey/healing process on Monday (June 11, 2007: Quit date).
I started smoking when I was about 12, I think while feeling rebellious and wanting to establish my idependence. I believed it made me look older and more accepted among my (smoking) siblings and peers. It was great fun to feel so grown up in those early years.
Now, over 30 years later, I certainly don't want to look any older, and the cigarettes have become a controlling and debilitating snare. (No big news to all of you! but it sure helps for me to write this, and just be truthful. Thanks:) I counted about 7 times that I've tried to quit, so this is number 8 - and I really hope the final quit! I'm trying to think positive, and be determined, but I'm a little afraid.
This time, I am taking Chantix. I've been on it for 6 days and chose to smoke for the first week while monitoring myself and following each step on their website. I am smoking much less, but I'm also feeling anxious because tomorrow is my last day to smoke and the Chantix site is helpful, but lacks the most important resource: real people like you!
I'm so glad I found you... and I look forward to joining a group of people that I admire for all the reasons I've been reading on this site today.
Scared but sincere,
mk
Thank you everybody... You all mean so much to me! I'm so glad you're here...
I'd love to be your Quit Buddy ImaWriter... I'm still not sure how to use everything on this site yet - nor do I know if I can (I'm on a Mac) but I will look into it more.
I'm happy to know you're on a similar path with the Chantix etc. I will be sure to let you know how it goes. If you have questions too, I would be glad to help if I can!
Good to know there's another mamakitty:)
Thanks again to all for the support...
mk
Hi everyone,
Today is Quit Day, and it's scary! I woke up around 6 and felt happy, and almost relieved to be quitting [again]. (Last night our 10 year old daughter and I had a nice talk about addiction during my last cigarette, (she never actually saw me smoke because I would outside alone) and she happily helped me toss the extras to prepare for today:) She is thankful, and very supportive of my quit.
I felt fine until about 6:45am when I sat to visit with my husband before work. As soon as I started sharing some of the things I'm learning and how thankful I am for real people in the same situation on this site... I started crying! I hardly ever do that. I feel so emotional and out of control.
So, I eventually regain myself and we part with a more normal feeling and a smile for the day... And then, I get this HUGE craving. I came to this site to distract myself. Then I walked past our little glass fish bowl with our daughter's beta (Tom jumped out of his bowl yesterday and was rescued) and this morning, he's dead. Oh boy. Life without the cigarette-crutch. I think I'll go take a shower...
Forgive me if I don't check back for awhile. I think I'll just get on with my day as best I can and try to ride through the cravings. I'm sure I'll be back tonight.
Thanks for being here...
mk
PS I'm taking Chantix this time. It does seem to help...
[B]My Milage:[/B]
[B]My Quit Date: [/B]6/11/2007
[B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 0
[B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 0
[B]Amount Saved:[/B] $0.00
[B]Life Gained:[/B]
[B]Days:[/B] 0 [B]Hrs:[/B] 0 [B]Mins:[/B] 54 [B]Seconds:[/B] 5
Yay! I made it through my first day!!
Good night,
mk
[B]My Milage:[/B]
[B]My Quit Date: [/B]6/11/2007
[B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 0
[B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 0
[B]Amount Saved:[/B] $0.00
[B]Life Gained:[/B]
[B]Days:[/B] 0 [B]Hrs:[/B] 2 [B]Mins:[/B] 17 [B]Seconds:[/B] 15
Thanks for all the great encouragement! You guys are great...
I'm almost through day two, and feel some good things happening already physically. I think I can breathe deeper?
I'm also feeling tired and a little blue. I almost always smoked at home in our backyard inbetween EVERYthing. Waking up, relaxing, getting ready to go shopping, coming back, before and after dinner, bed, etc... so I've been staying away and keeping busy as much as possible these first two days. When I'm tired and come back to relax I get those strong cravings more often. I ride them out though and try to think of something else or wait for it to pass. Pretty scary though, because I work from home!
When I was walking today (my new thing to do) I got behind someone smoking and it smelled so good to me! I wonder if that will ever go away, because I know the smell is better than the first taste, and all the puffs after that are just snares back into the web of addiction...
I wish I could think of a good substitute of something satisfying to do to fill that void well enough... I will think of it as a flu. Wow. 5 days after 3 packs a day! Maybe I'll think of you when I feel sorry for myself:)
I'm learning, and growing! ouch:)
mk
[B]My Milage:[/B]
[B]My Quit Date: [/B]6/11/2007
[B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 1
[B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 15
[B]Amount Saved:[/B] $3.50
[B]Life Gained:[/B]
[B]Days:[/B] 0 [B]Hrs:[/B] 4 [B]Mins:[/B] 17 [B]Seconds:[/B] 28
Thank you Lainey. That makes lots of sense... I'll try the gum, breathing and straw like this today. I've been chewing gum and breathing (inhaling through my nose to a count of 5, and exhaling slowly from my mouth to 7) That helps, but I think changing up the way I do things, like you said, is a great trick for Nic:) Thanks! (Maybe it won't take another 32 years to learn these new habits just as well:)
Yes I am experiencing changes in my body. I am still coughing, and sometimes feel nausea, diarrhea, headache and depression. Are there other weird things you know of that I can expect in the next weeks as I'm healing?
Congratulations on almost 100 Smoke-Free days!
MK
[B]My Milage:[/B]
[B]My Quit Date: [/B]6/11/2007
[B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 2
[B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 30
[B]Amount Saved:[/B] $7.00
[B]Life Gained:[/B]
[B]Days:[/B] 0 [B]Hrs:[/B] 5 [B]Mins:[/B] 57 [B]Seconds:[/B] 56
This is great news HadEnough! Keep up the good work! You're such an inspiration to me.
I am on day 3, and also on Chantix (interrupted dreams and restlessness around 4am:) so it's neat to follow your progress because I can relate so well. You gave me encouragement for today without even knowing it... I want to send some back to you:)
Have a great day!(and when you have a craving at the computer, pet the cat:)
Mamakitty
[B]My Milage:[/B]
[B]My Quit Date: [/B]6/11/2007
[B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 3
[B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 45
[B]Amount Saved:[/B] $10.50
[B]Life Gained:[/B]
[B]Days:[/B] 0 [B]Hrs:[/B] 8 [B]Mins:[/B] 20 [B]Seconds:[/B] 37
Hello Sugarnose,
Congratulations on your decision to stop. It'll be SO great to not be controlled by those cigs anymore!
mk
[B]My Milage:[/B]
[B]My Quit Date: [/B]6/11/2007
[B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 3
[B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 45
[B]Amount Saved:[/B] $10.50
[B]Life Gained:[/B]
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MyLast,
Thanks for the inspiration and something to look forward to! I'm still working on my first week, and after 4 days I'm finally able to put my mental dukes down a little. So glad to hear that it gets better soon!
Taking it one day at a time (and even enjoying parts of it:)
mk
[B]My Milage:[/B]
[B]My Quit Date: [/B]6/11/2007
[B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 4
[B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 60
[B]Amount Saved:[/B] $14.00
[B]Life Gained:[/B]
[B]Days:[/B] 0 [B]Hrs:[/B] 11 [B]Mins:[/B] 35 [B]Seconds:[/B] 4
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