Nothing I read or learned prepared me for the first day....
Quitting - it's a hell of a journey, my friend. Ups and downs, crying and yelling - being mad as hell, picking a fight with a salesperson, and so it goes.
You are hanging in there. Read, write in a journal, call a friend, yell, run, walk around the block, watch a TV show, go to the mall, play in the grass, take a hot, soothing bath, hug your wife, do something special for yourself, plant some flowers, wash the car, paint a wall, and get that anger and frustration out, sleep, do whatever you have to do just DON'T SMOKE. It's hell, its hard, its crazy... It's our Quit journey, and you can do this.
Take one moment at a time. Stay in the moment. Use your stubborness, use it like you've never used it in your life.
This is a fight for your life. It really is.
I also quit cold turkey. And when I have moments that I think about smoking, I say to myself, out loud most of the time, "If I still smoked, I would have a cigarette right now" - but, I don't smoke anymore. I don't want an oxygen tank with me later in life. I don't want to be fighting to breathe, I don't want to stink anymore. I don't want my house and car stinking. I love the freedom I have now. And ya know what? There are many times when I feel this incredible natural high... It's strange, it's interesting, it's like a taste of the most powerful and amazing freedom, and when I'm feeling that natural high, I ride it like a wave... I am in the Pacific - riding that wave like there's no tomorrow...
Adam, you can do this. Hang on to yourself with EVERYTHING YOU HAVE and protect your Quit with your life, dear one. Your Quit is young, it needs protection. Hold it close, don't let it get away from you.
You have made it this far, stay in the moment- don't get ahead of yourself. What you are missing here is YOU ARE DOING IT!!
Blessings - breathe, breathe, breathe-
[B]My Quit Date: [/B] 3/5/2006
[B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 26
[B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 913
[B]Amount Saved:[/B] $62.4
[B]Days:[/B] 3 [B]Hrs:[/B] 9 [B]Mins:[/B] 18 [B]Seconds:[/B] 21