I am on the verge of separation/divorce from my wife of 16 years, have a very bad relationship with my 15 year old son, and an 11 year old daughter struggling with dyslexia who has been out of school now for three years. I am the sole breadwinner in a stressful job, and have been ostracized by all three of them ranging from ignored to screamed at on a daily basis. Everything has been blamed on me, being told that I'm angry all the time, but it is pure frustration over the fact that nothing is getting better....my wife is not effective in parenting, setting no limits, nor good examples (ie: sleeps late, on ipad all day, poor diet). She went ahead and obtained a medical prescription for cannabis for my son despite my disagreement; all he is doing now is smoking weed and playing xbox (also hasn't been to school in two years due to anxiety and depression). Even something as simple as sending my 11 year old daughter to bed on time results in a three way screaming match at 1 am in the morning (as per last night).
I feel like I'm going insane. I know that if we split up, the sheer economics of it will prevent my kids from getting the help they need. I have begged my wife to go to joint counselling with me. I am fighting depression every day, to the point of felling suicidal, especially when sleep deprived. I know that if I were to leave, things would only continue to get worse for my kids, as my wife would have to go back to work, and our finances would not allow the specialized assistance we've been pursuing (my daughter has been tutored in reading by specialist, and was supposed to start at an alternative school in November).
I'm writing here because i don't know what to do. I am not used to being helpless, or begging. I just can't live like this anymore.
