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10 years ago 0 jSquared 36 logo logo logo logo logo logo logo logo logo logo 0
Hi everyone... my story.

Hi SilverFern,


I noticed that you said your medication also lowers your immune system. I have recently started weight training again, but this time I am doing it the right way. I've researched a bunch about nutrition and also have a buddy who is in college to become a dietitian. One thing that can help improve your immune system is by switching to organic foods and eating more raw or steamed vegetables. The reasons for this is that the food that we usually eat is so processed and full of crap that our bodies don't absorb it like it's supposed too and cooking your vegetables above 115 degrees fahrenheit actually destroys the nutrients that your body should get. And the body also sees all of the processed food and chemicals that they add as "foreign objects" and sends white blood cells to actually destroy what most people are putting in their bodies and effectively lowers the immune system.
I know it is kind of expensive to switch over to organic foods, but your health is worth it! I'm currently an unemployed college student and don't have enough money to switch over to a completely organic diet, but I have been buying and introducing as much organic foods as I can when I have the money. The Fred Meyer by where I live has a great organic section and is a lot less expensive than Trader Joe's or some of the other places. If you would like to learn more about what we are eating and how it correlates to our health, check out the movie "Food Matters", it's available on Netflix if you have it.

The best of luck,
-jSquared
10 years ago 0 jSquared 36 logo logo logo logo logo logo logo logo logo logo 0
Hello! :D

Hello everyone!

I would like to introduce myself and share my story. My name is Justin, I'm a 26 year old college student studying Information Technology - Help Desk Support. I've been trying to improve my outlook on life and become a better person to help me deal with my anxiety and panic attacks.

My anxiety and panic attacks began when I was a teenager. At the time I was young and naive and started smoking marijuana. Well, I didn't know anything about panic attacks at the time. I think I first noticed my panic attacks recurring nightly, because I had a hard time sleeping then I would smoke to help me get to sleep. The attacks that I had back then weren't so bad, they would just be my heart racing after I would get done smoking and be laying in bed. But I was still somehow able to fall asleep pretty quickly. Well, I went to the doctor and filled out a form, and she told me that I was having these problems because of panic attacks. So she prescribed me Paxil CR, I took those for about 3 months, stopped smoking marijuana, stopped taking the Paxil and I was good.
That was when I was 18. Well, fast forward to me being 24, I had smoked every now and then, but this time I was at a friends house, took a hit from a bong after being awake for only an hour, and bam! I had a BIG panic attack. I felt depersonalization, I was paranoid, and felt like I was going crazy. This was the first time I had experienced these symptoms during a panic attack, so I was very, very afraid. I was trying to get a hold of my doctor to see what I could do to feel better, but I was unsuccessful in reaching anyone at the time. I can't remember how long the symptoms were really bad for, but I know I had the symptoms for two hours. I managed to fall asleep while I still felt anxiety and panic, but to a lesser extent. I woke up about an hour or two later, felt mostly better, and was able to get a hold of a counselor at the clinic and that was the extent of that.
So about a year ago, I was 25, I had gotten laid off from work due to a lack of work. I got evicted from my apartment and had to move in with my friend who had been working at the same place I had, which sucked because him and his girlfriend had just broken up and it wasn't a good environment to be in. And after about a month of being there he was getting evicted too. That was when I had another really bad panic attack, because I didn't know where I was going to go or what I was going to do. The symptoms were pretty much the same as the last bad attack that I had but worse and it happened mid-day. The attack started when I was in the shower, I just remember feeling like my hands weren't my hands and then the attack happened. I freaked out, my mind was racing, so I hopped out of the shower real quick, dried off, got dressed and laid down in my room and started researching panic attack symptoms to try and reassure myself that that's what I was having. Well I went the whole day trying to watch movies and relax while feeling the anxiety and panic, until I finally fell asleep. I woke up the next day feeling better, but not completely relaxed, I was still a little on-edge. I had been talking to my Mom to see if I could come stay with her at my Aunt's place, because she was unemployed and staying there at the time. She came down to see me later that day, and told me that it was a no go. So there came another attack, not as bad as the day before, but still pretty bad.
I had my Mom take me to the ER and got signed in for my panic attacks. I talked to the nurses, the doctor, and a social worker and got prescribed for Lorazepam. So I went and picked that up, asked the pharmacist how strong the meds were(1mg), and took a half a pill. Went to family friends' house to talk to them about staying there and they said that we could. So the next day we started packing and moving stuff to a storage unit and just bringing the essentials to their place. I took a half a pill for the next two days after receiving the meds, so three days in total and then stopped taking them cause I was feeling myself again. After about a month of not taking the meds and mainly feeling fine, I felt weird, but it was different than the panic attack feelings I had, so new and scary. So I took a half a pill to help me, but it didn't work like it had in the past.
So this went on for the next two months or so, I would be fine most of the time, but there was something different going on in my mind and I knew it wasn't the regular panic attack feelings or thoughts. So I would take a half a pill when I thought I needed it and it would mostly help. Well one day I decided to do research on the Lorazepam. I found out the symptoms of withdrawal and knew instantly that that's what was going on with me. So I decided right then to stop taking them and fight through the scary. It was difficult for me to get through this. I was mainly staying to myself and I didn't want to tell anyone about what I was going through. It took a couple of months for the withdrawal symptoms to somewhat subside, maybe more, its kind of a blur and hard for me to remember how long everything actually took. And slowly but surely, the longer time went on, the better and better I started to feel. I think its been about two or three months since I have felt anything weird related to the withdrawal symptoms, and it took a while, I had the symptoms for around 8 or 9 months. And I know this isn't the case for everyone, usually people have been on the Lorazepam for at least a month or so and take more than .5mg of the meds, if memory serves me correctly, before they usually get the withdrawal symptoms. I think I was just hypersensitive to it.
But I have been doing really good these past two months. I have been hanging out with my friends more, getting out and doing the stuff that I would normally do and more. Sometimes I felt a bit of anxiety creep up, but nothing I couldn't deal with and get over. I have taken up indoor bouldering(a type of rock climbing), weight training, researching nutrition, switching my diet to more raw and organic foods, and resuming the hobbies that I enjoy. But yesterday, after doing my usual workout, coming home and eating, doing laundry, I jumped in the shower and had a moderate attack. I knew it might happen when I was jumping in the shower, because I felt a bit disconnected and not myself yesterday. I still do have days like this when I feel that depersonalization, its not very bad, but it usually lasts throughout the day which just isn't nice, because I like who I am and I don't enjoy feeling like I'm not myself. So I cut my shower short because I was kind of freaking out and felt a little on-edge for the rest of the night. Then today I woke up and felt a lot better, pretty much normal. Then I went to the gym, started my workout with cardio on a bike like I normally do, and about two minutes into the cardio I felt the panic again. A quick heat wave and numbness went through my body and I felt anxiety. It wasn't a full blown attack, but it was trying to be. So I got off the bike, did my stretches and my workout with the anxiety and panic trying to creep up on me, because I was still on edge throughout my workout, and came home.
I decided to do more research on anxiety and found a link to this page from another page that I have bookmarked. And I am so glad that I found this link. Because I went through the first stage of CBT(which I have been trying to find stuff to learn or go through CBT online for about the past ten months without any luck), read some of the forum posts, and have been very fortunate that I found this site. So far my on-edge feeling has subsided and I feel like myself again just from doing the first stage and reading the forum posts. The members and educators here are fantastic, I can tell just from the posts I've read. Thank you for such a great site. I can't wait to learn more and get completely over the anxiety and panic that is somewhat still there.

Stay positive,
-jSquared
10 years ago 0 jSquared 36 logo logo logo logo logo logo logo logo logo logo 0
Hello! :D

Thank you for the welcomes. :)

I am glad I found the site. And Ashley, I do plan on completing the entire CBT program. I have been trying to find a way to do self CBT for about the last 8 to 10 months, but had no luck finding anything until I came across this site.

I do have a question though. I tried to edit my profile, as in post an avatar and maybe put some things in there to introduce myself, but I could not figure out either where the button is or how. If someone could help me with that it would be great. Thank you.

-jSquared
10 years ago 0 jSquared 36 logo logo logo logo logo logo logo logo logo logo 0
Hello! :D

Hi Ashley,

Thank you for responding to my question. I was trying to find a FAQ link, but didn't notice the buttons at the bottom of the page. Got it figured out, thank you.

-jSquared
10 years ago 0 jSquared 36 logo logo logo logo logo logo logo logo logo logo 0
Hello! :D

Thanks Davit,

I see you post a lot on the forums and supporting other people. That is very kind and generous of you. I plan on sticking to the program and doing whatever I can to conquer my anxiety and panic. I liked who I was before the panic disorder set in(which the Lorazepam they gave me didn't help with that). So I plan on doing whatever I can to get better and be my old self again. I have been working on stuff for it, like breathing and muscle relaxation techniques, but I've really wanted to do CBT work since I found out about it. I'm very glad and appreciative that I found this site, I know it will help me and I will stick with it, promise.

Stay positive,
-jSquared
10 years ago 0 jSquared 36 logo logo logo logo logo logo logo logo logo logo 0
Herbal Remedies - Ask the Expert

Hello everyone.

One natural supplement that worked and works for me is L-theanine. It is naturally found in green tea and helped to calm me down. I go with products that contain SunTheanine because its a pure, safe product. The first two or three days when I took it I felt super relaxed, and then after that it helped keep me calm but less of a sedated feeling. As with all supplements, please do research on this supplement and talk to a Dr. before taking it. Always start off with a low dose first and then increase it in small amounts if needed.
Stay positive,
-jSquared
10 years ago 0 jSquared 36 logo logo logo logo logo logo logo logo logo logo 0
Rebuilding Self Esteem 2

Hello,

I think its a great thing that you put up a topic about rebuilding self-esteem. When I was researching topics about how to help with anxiety I found a site that told me that building self-esteem helps. Well I went to either Borders or Barnes & Noble and picked up a book about it. I'm currently only on Chapter 5 right now, but what I've worked through in the book so far is helpful and has been teaching me new things. I know there are chapters in it that work on some of the things you listed that people can work on also. I'm just a caring person and hope that others will find it useful also. :D

Stay positive,
-jSquared
10 years ago 0 jSquared 36 logo logo logo logo logo logo logo logo logo logo 0
Hello! :D

Hello,

Thank you for the welcome Red. Tiana, thank you for the welcome. I do try and practice the breathing techniques and muscle relaxation every morning. The muscle relaxation also helps with the little bit of soreness I still have left from working out too! So its good in two ways for me. And the insight and mind-set have been through quite a bit of research over the last year, I'm a determined person, so when I want to accomplish something I do a lot of research and stick to my goals. Thank you everyone for the kind words and support, I really appreciate it. :D

Stay positive,
-jSquared
10 years ago 0 jSquared 36 logo logo logo logo logo logo logo logo logo logo 0
Rebuilding Self Esteem 2

Sorry everyone, I didn't know that links weren't allowed and my previous post was edited.

The name of the book is: "The Self-Esteem Workbook" and was written by Glenn R. Schiraldi, PH.D.

Stay positive,
-jSquared
10 years ago 0 jSquared 36 logo logo logo logo logo logo logo logo logo logo 0
Question about advancement in CBT

Hello,

I know that the program says to stay with every step for a week, but I was wondering if that included step 1? Because it seems like step 1 is more of just an introduction to what panic and anxiety are. This is my third day of step 1 and I have recorded these days in the symptom tracker, plus the day before because that was when my anxiety level actually rose and led to a mild attack. So I was just wondering if I should do step 1 for a week before moving to step 2 or if moving on would be fine? I do plan on keeping with step 2 for a week because I understand that learning is a process, especially with dealing with something like anxiety. Thank you.

Stay positive,
-jSquared