hi
feel like a big old rant so hear i go, PAS have got worse over the past week and so has depression (still on the waiting list to see a councillor), everthing seems to be going wrong. hardly getting any work at the moment because of the credit crunch which obviously means a strain on the finances which is very stressful in its self. i found myself constantly worrying over ths and crying because i just dont no what to do?! i feel physically i cannot cope anymore and feel very alone, noone to turn to because i bug them with my problems all the time. i feel im trapped in a room and cant get out because there is no way out. its like what is the point of living?im going to die when i havent accomplished anything, and feel bad for my daughter for this leaving her in the lurch with no future and nothing to leave her.
i also have had a biopsy recently which showed abnormal cells on my cervix and have to have treatment to treat the pre-cancerous cells which scares the hell out of me and really not good at taking pain at the moment dont no why never used to affect me even when i gave birth with no pain relief.
any help??
xx