Patrick,
I don't know if you have anxiety issues as well but my blood pressure medicine actually has something in it that helps with anxiety as well. Check with your doctor. There are a lot of medications out these days that don't interact with each other. I don't know if I can say it or not but I take Antanolol (sp) for my blood pressure. It has not been elevated by the effexor except on rare occassions when I'm losing control.
I hope this helps you.
Welcome to the site Gabs. I feel the way you do. I don't like medication and this depression stuff scares the hell out of me. I hate losing control and I don't know what to do about it. I hate the days that the tears won't stop and I'm doing everything in my power to try and learn how to "fix" it if there even is a way. I am stumbling through the program trying to figure it out too so you are not alone.
Hang in there. There has to be a solution.
Gabs.
I am on the second session and I am out of town. However, I decided to log on and do my mood tracker. I think it is important to figure out what my triggers are and then address them.
Lady
I get afraid when I've had extreme highs and the lows immediately follow. It seems my life is always ups and downs. It is very rare that I find a happy medium.
Yesterday was awesome. We went the State Fair and it was a lot of fun. Today is down the drain. Extreme high to extreme low. I'm trying to work the program here and am doing the mood tracker. I'm hoping that this will help me avoid my trigger spots.
I don't know how to control my depression. Is there any such thing? I'm trying to learn all I can and would appreciate any assistance anyone could help me with.
Thanks.
Danielle,
What made the other day so wonderful was being with people I love having a great time. It really was a great day. Negative thinking is what brings me down but I don't seem to be able to avoid it. I suppose I don't know how.
I also experienced a major incident involving my two boys. I cannot share here what happened but it was quite disturbing. I have to go home today which takes me away from the man I love. I probably wont see him again for a couple of weeks. At the same time, I'm glad to have someone that supports me and loves me.
Earlier today, I was convenienced that my boys would be better off with other family members as opposed to me. I was ready to take the 5 year old to his dad and drop the 14 year old off at his aunts house. I just don't feel I'm a good enough mother. Providing a roof over their heads and food to eat just isn't enough.
I've been in tears since yesterday evening. I suppose I should just get over it but it really isn't that simple. I don't know why I'm even typing this. It's not like anyone really cares. I don't know what I'm doing or what I'm suppose to do. This is probably a big waste of time. I don't know why I'm pouring out my soul in an anomous sight where there isn't even much activity. I doubt anyone can really help me. I've been in Counseling for a year now and I still have too many issues to deal with.
I'm not ready to end my life. I just wonder how I can go so wrong. At the same time, I have everything I've worked years to achieve, so where is that peaceful feeling that comes with happiness? Why do I still have the tears? When and where does it all end?
Each mileston I reach, I don't seem to be happy. I think if just this or that... I would be fine and then it happens and I'm still not fine. My boyfriend said that giving up isn't an option. My boys need me and no one will do better for them than I do because no one will love them like I do. I don't think I agree but I will continue to do my best. I fear for them. A nut for a mom isn't good. I often wonder if I'm screwing up their lives.
My boyfriend said I have to be strong and show them that I'm strong. Dry up the tears, and go one with it all. Life IS good. I know life is good. It really is. I just don't know how to stop these feelings of anxiety and despair. I don't know how to stop the tears. I don't know how to control the emotions. I don't know why I keep trying. I don't know if I will ever be better.
Hang on Gabs. Tomorrow you go to the hospital and that is reaching out for help. You keep reaching until you find what you need. Pray Gabs. I don't know if you are a religious person or not but I do know that God looks out for all of us and we are all His children.
Is there someone else you can call to help take care of your father? I too feel responsible for so many thing that I just can't handle at times. I've had to learn to let go and let others take care of themselves. It isn't easy but I am not the only resource in the world. We can only do what we can do.
I don't have any answers, merely suggestions and they probably aren't too good. All I know is that God never gives us more than we can bear and that if he brings us to it, He will bring us through it. Hang in there Gabs. Tomorrow is a new day to be lived. You can't give up. Tomorrow may be just the breakthrough you need.
Gabs,
You just brought to my attention something I told myself about a week ago. I need to spend less time in my head and more time on my knees. We don't have answers Gab but God knows what He is doing. I do believe there is a reason for everything. I will keep you in my prayers.
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