Isn't it amazing how desparete we are to get out of that dark pit and to get back to normal but yet are hesitant and can't seem to find the courage to work the program as it is outlined here?
I think it's totally amazing and a perfect example of how devistating depression really is.
Wildcat,
I thought Session 3 was great. I printed out the sheets and actually tried to fill them out every day. I made 4 out of 7 so I guess that isn't too bad. Even though I didn't fill out the sheets I was more conscious of how I react to things and what my role is.
I have a tendency to go off the deep end with each conversation to certain people. I have a tendency to also allow others to alter my current mood. Writing down what I thought and how I felt and then destinquishing the difference between what was a thought and what was a feeling was good for me. Controlling what I think helps to control what I feel.
That is what I have found. I have not moved on to the next session yet but it is supose to create more understanding from what I've read thus far.
Lady
Thanks folks.
I've been doing pretty good at fighting those "downs" and negative thoughts this past week or so. Mainly because I just got fed up with it all and said I'm not going to do it anymore.
I know that we can't control depression but I don't think we have to be it's victum either! I also know that in an hour I could be in total tears again but for now I am good. I'm hanging on.
Those negative thoughts don't seem to want to vanish but the more I fight them, the better I get. The negative thoughts are the most damaging. Gives me an idea for a fresh post.
I have been listening to a series of CD's that help teenagers deal with life issues. This is something that I'm going to use with my youth group. These CD's are really helping me and I hope they have the same affect on the teens.
One of the CD's deal with wounded Spirits. When people put you down, when you aren't ever good enough, when you don't quite fit in, when you feel all alone... Oh did this hit home with me. Over time our spirits become wounded and maybe even broken.
I think the fact that we are even here proves that we are not broken but I'm sure we all have wounded spirits. To heal a wounded spirit is so very difficult to do. The negative thinking begins and eventually takes over. The thoughts we have of and for ourselves are thoughts that we wouldn't dream of having for others.
One of the things the speaker says is that for anyone to do anything or say anything to another human being that is hurtful, painful, damaging, or mean is just plain WRONG! WRONG! WRONG! WRONG!
I personally wouldn't dream of saying mean things to others. So why do I say them to myself?
I believe everyone has a purpose in this world. So why don't I believe that about myself?
I wouldn't ever tell anyone they are fat and ugly. So why do I do that to myself?
I wouldn't ever question anyone's self-worth. So why do I do that to myself?
Just as it is wrong to be mean and demeaning to others, it is wrong to do it to ourselves as well. I don't have any solutions on how to fix these wounded spirits but I think recognizing and gaining knowledge is key in finding the answers. I refuse to give up on me. I may be wounded but I am NOT broken.
Tania,
I think one of the biggest mistakes we make is allowing others to determine our emotional state. So many times the way I feel and the things that send me down that downward spiral are things that other people say and do.
We are in control of ourselves. When we allow ourselves to be controlled by others we are living for them not ourselves. I have had to limit the contact with those that have the biggest affect on me. I still talk to them but not as much because of the way they make me feel.
I hope this helps.
Thanks for replying Twister. I was beginning to feel I was way off beat with these thoughts since no one had any comments.
I really feel like I've had a revelation in the last couple of weeks. I'm just trying to share some of that with others and hoping that it helps in some way.
Perspective is so important.
Not today! I will not go down.
I will block those negative thoughts.
I've been up and feeling good.
I have taken all my medicine.
I will not let others determine my mood.
I am worthy of a happy good life.
It is all perspective and today is a good day.
I will not go down that spiral.
I don't want to.
I refuse to.
Not today!!!! I will not go down today.
I AM going to continue to be happy.
I will not fall today.
I will not fail today.
I must stay up.
I can't handle the being down any more.
Oh stop the tears.
I am not alone.
I am happy, I am loved, I have a purpose in this world.
I don't want to go down today.
Make the pain go away.
Climbing back up. Refusing to go down without a fight.
I will not let the demons get to me today.
I refuse to listen to those negative thoughts.
Make them stop. Make them go away!!!!! NOW!!!!!
Someone just made me feel worthless. I know it wasn't on purpose but the affect was just the same. I'm ready to leave work and go hide under the covers for a while. I just want to sleep and hide.
I'm fighting... I'm not winning.
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