General question
As you know, yesterday I went riding. For me, as funny as it sounds, it is a very peaceful, tranquil activity. That is why I get to do a lot of soul searching.. and to make peace with some of my demons...
Among a number of things that I thought of during yesterday's ride, one question, one thought keeps coming back - have you ever been weak, have you ever been the one whining...
Before I get in trouble, please let me explain.
On a normal day-to-day basis, I do consider myself pretty strong, confident, "take no prisoners" attitude. OK, part of this is just make belief... but most of the time I am a pretty self-sufficient, strong person.
When I look back to the past 14 days though... I am not too proud of myself. Yes, I am fighting/beating the demon. Yes, I stay smoke-free. BUT, in the process, I am reaching out for help/approval/pat on the back, at every given moment. Is this normal? Is this the usual process? Together with the quitting you are also supposed to lose some if your independence as well?
Or is it just me?
That is why, if at all possible, I'd like to know if the quit brought others to the same position - learning to be humble, seeking for help...
How about the semi-gods like Duffis, Mr.Ed, Tresa, Katie, Marivi, Kaiser, Astrofan, Impalamania...? Were they mortals like me at one point?
I don't know. Maybe is just a way the nicodemon plays with my mind - makes me philosophical at 6 am on a Sunday morning. Still, I'd like to get some replies...
10/5/2009
Smoke-Free Days: 13
Cigarettes Not Smoked: 455
Amount Saved: $59.15
Life Gained:Days: 1
Hrs: 5
Mins: 33
Seconds: 58
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