Hi Ya Joe:
You haven't made it sound trivial, just from your posts I know that you are someone who has been there.
As for not giving up, way to go Joe. I too am the kind not to give up as I have already been through Panic Disorder, Depression and now am going through GAD. It's just at times that I feel like giving up, but I never would.
Thanks for asking about how it is with mum now. Well we are talking and went out for our usual nightly walk, I know it's really hard for mum me being an emotional roller coaster. I tend to jump to conclusions and a lot of the time they are wrong. I have told mum that during my 3 weeks off for Christmas break I will try to look for a psychotherapist close to me as I believe I need the supervision and structure therapy brings. I think it's time to try therapy again. You know years ago I would hear about some Hollywood star in therapy and thought - wow. Now I'm in need of help.
Have you ever had the feeling that something is going to happen to you but you don't know what, it's a feeling of fear and uneasiness. I have had this on/off (more on than off) since my depression last December and sometimes it really gets to me, like tonight.
As for that poor little soul that died, I thought maybe if we had got there sooner it might have had a chance.