Hi Kaitlina,
The weight thing is today my biggest obstacle to stopping smoking. My last quit, I jogged, did not increase food intake but after 7 months, 40 freakin pounds.
What I have learned since is that smoking speeds up your metabolism, so even if you dont overeat, you automatically gain because your metabolism slows down. Darn. I was so miserable and uncomfortable that I went back. There was no end in sight. I was ballooning. The doctors were telling me to accept this and live with it. Got a huge resentment over that.
Trying again anyway cause now I need a corrective cosmetic surgury and I have to be off smoking for a month at least.
Maybe this time I can do it long term . My original plan was to lose for that month and then go back because I hated my quality of life off it.
You can see why I am cranky. But I'm thinking now, "Okay, maybe this time I can increase my jogging". Maybe I can eat a bit less. I have the time. I have years of theapy under my belt so I have so I have insight as to why I started in the first place. I am financially secure and independant otherwise. A miracle. So this could be the final step. Throwing away the last crutch. If I can walk away from a dysfunctional family, I can do this. Mo more taking care of them, now taking care of me.
Cranky.