Today is the day!!!

Hiya Gogga, congratulations on deciding to quit, just take it slow and keep strong. [B]My Milage:[/B] [B]My Quit Date: [/B] 2/28/2006 [B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 41 [B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 1,234 [B]Amount Saved:[/B] �98.4 [B]Life Gained:[/B] [B]Days:[/B] 4 [B]Hrs:[/B] 5 [B]Mins:[/B] 34 [B]Seconds:[/B] 9

Hell Week

Hi bobjo, yes it does get better but you have to be patient. I dont know how long you smoked for but you have to remember that if you smoked for quite a while the withdrawal and the memories of smoking will be with you for a while. [B]My Milage:[/B] [B]My Quit Date: [/B] 2/28/2006 [B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 41 [B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 1,234 [B]Amount Saved:[/B] �98.4 [B]Life Gained:[/B] [B]Days:[/B] 4 [B]Hrs:[/B] 5 [B]Mins:[/B] 34 [B]Seconds:[/B] 58

Maintaining My Quit: Day 2

Great poem Eve, congratulations on your quit. Mine has been a wiered, emotional and sometimes very tough quit but it has been so worth it. Keep your reasons to quit close to you through the rough patches and stay close to this site. [B]My Milage:[/B] [B]My Quit Date: [/B] 2/28/2006 [B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 40 [B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 1,221 [B]Amount Saved:[/B] �96 [B]Life Gained:[/B] [B]Days:[/B] 4 [B]Hrs:[/B] 4 [B]Mins:[/B] 30 [B]Seconds:[/B] 18

I'm Change

Hi gumphfy,congratulations on 5 days. It seems to me that when i smoked my emotions were locked away somewhere and since i stopped i get angry more, i cry more, and i now laugh at things that i otherwise would not have. Although this is a little unnerving at times i realise that all these changes make me feel more alive than i did when i was smoking. [B]My Milage:[/B] [B]My Quit Date: [/B] 2/28/2006 [B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 40 [B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 1,220 [B]Amount Saved:[/B] �96 [B]Life Gained:[/B] [B]Days:[/B] 4 [B]Hrs:[/B] 4 [B]Mins:[/B] 26 [B]Seconds:[/B] 26

Lost the plot, but i will be back

Hi everyone, i'm just letting you know that i have gone back to smoking, i seem to have lost the plot. I could not get back the motivation after i had them few cigarettes. I think what golferman wrote about drowning in emotions of the quit is what happened to me. you carry on with life and everyone thinks that you are doing OK, but inside you feel that you are ready to explode. If i could go back to before i had them cigs, i would, but what is done is done. I have learned from this mistake so all is not lost and i know that i will be back shortly when i am fully charged again. I am already thinking of new ways to cope when it gets too tough. I want to thank eveyone who kept me here for 48 days, i know i would not have accomplished that without you all. Good luck to everyone, and remember N.O.P.E, or you will end up smoking as many as,or more than before. I will keep coming here and reading the posts and when i am ready i will be back, ready to take on the big fight again.

i dont think i can do this

i have just returned from the shops with some beers, i went for beers and cigs but just couldnt do it, i wanted to so badly. I got back in the car and drove a little further down the road to the next store that sells cigs, i parked outside for 30 minutes going through the "go ahead and buy some" V "no you are doing so well" argument, the quit won this time, but for how much longer. I am tired of fighting this, i knew it was going to be tough but not for this long, in fact is has got harder instead of easier, i dont know if i can keep this up. [B]My Milage:[/B] [B]My Quit Date: [/B] 2/28/2006 [B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 48 [B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 1,459 [B]Amount Saved:[/B] �115.2 [B]Life Gained:[/B] [B]Days:[/B] 5 [B]Hrs:[/B] 0 [B]Mins:[/B] 4 [B]Seconds:[/B] 21

1 year today and Thanks to all

Congratulations, what a great achievment [B]My Milage:[/B] [B]My Quit Date: [/B] 2/28/2006 [B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 48 [B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 1,445 [B]Amount Saved:[/B] �115.2 [B]Life Gained:[/B] [B]Days:[/B] 4 [B]Hrs:[/B] 22 [B]Mins:[/B] 55 [B]Seconds:[/B] 56

i dont think i can do this

Hello everyone and thankyou for all for the support, some very wise words were said and i listened to them intently. Yesterday I smoked 5 cigs and then threw the pack away before i went to bed. I havnt had any today, I know i dont want to go back to that so i am back to the quit again. Most of the time it is ok, i can cope but when it gets like it did yesterday, i just could not stand it any more. I just hope next time it gets like that (cus i know it will) i will be able to ride out the storm. I am not putting my quit meter back, i think i have worked too hard for it to just be cancelled out. I will know what i have done every time i look at it. [B]My Milage:[/B] [B]My Quit Date: [/B] 2/28/2006 [B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 49 [B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 1,483 [B]Amount Saved:[/B] �117.6 [B]Life Gained:[/B] [B]Days:[/B] 5 [B]Hrs:[/B] 2 [B]Mins:[/B] 1 [B]Seconds:[/B] 8

i dont think i can do this

I want to thank you all for the support and kind words they made me cry because i blew it, I went back out and bought some I just couldn�t take the torment any longer. I just wanted to get back to that comfortable feeling and be rid of the anguish, but what I didn�t realise at the time was that I just replacing one anguish with another. I now have the feeling of failure added to all the reasons why I wanted to stop smoking in the first place. I used to enjoy a drink and a smoke and if I am going to be honest them first few cigs I had felt good, they tasted disgusting but hell you can�t have everything can you, but I know I will be right back to wanting to stop straight away. But now all I feel is regret. Regret because I could not find the strength to keep this battle up, because this is a battle a very hard one. Regret that I let my 11 year old son down, he cried when he saw that I was smoking. Regret that my other children were so obviously disappointed but did not say much because they knew how hard I tried. My partner said �I knew you wouldn�t be able to do it�, but he was never a very good source of support, he has never smoked and so doesn�t have a clue. So here I am drinking and smoking, but what do I do next, I am already having to clear my throat and that is only after a few cigs. I have to decide if I am going to go back to smoking full time or get back on the quit wagon. At the beginning of this year I wrote down a list of things I wanted to do to improve myself, top of the list was stop smoking that was the most important to me, it still is. My mum died of lung cancer a few years ago and I know that is how I will end up if I can�t stop smoking.. Why does it have to be so hard. I would never have made it to 48 days without all my invisible friends out there and i thank you from the bottom of my heart. I know i am rambling rather but i am just trying to sort out what i am going to do. I know i do not want to go back to waking in the morning and the first thought being a cigerette and having to clear my throat all the time and smelling like an old ash tray. I quite liked the new me. So i have decided i will chuck out the cigs and start again.Wish me luck i'm gonna need it. [B]My Milage:[/B] [B]My Quit Date: [/

40 days

Congratulations, you are doing great 40 days is fantastic. [B]My Milage:[/B] [B]My Quit Date: [/B] 2/28/2006 [B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 45 [B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 1,354 [B]Amount Saved:[/B] �108 [B]Life Gained:[/B] [B]Days:[/B] 4 [B]Hrs:[/B] 15 [B]Mins:[/B] 25 [B]Seconds:[/B] 30