I just ran across a friend on Facebook of course and sent a message. When we worked together years ago I was fine.
Why cant I just get in my car and drive somewhere? Why is it like this? This whole Panic attick thing ruined my life!
None of the bad would have started if it wasnt for that first panic attack. My world began to slowly deteriorate from that day forward. I had a life a family and abeautiful home. Its all gone and I still cant get in my car and go somewhere. It sucks.
I was walking for months! I take the bus and the light rail downtown. I was doing that almost daily until my little depression setback and I havnt gotten back on track yet. Now I drive to the light rail station, its half a mile and its hard.
If I drove everywhere my life would be much better. Especially since to make more money and to see my kids I have to drive.
I never really started a exposure plan. I just started making small trips. Not driving has RUINED my life and makes it so I cant go see my kids.
I wish I knew what went wrong so I could fix it. Its easier if you know what to fix.
I tried so many things, diet, excersize, supplements, not smoking! So whats worked? Basically I have made myself more miserabble by not smoking and for what? I just dont know anymore.
When I first started having panic attacks I was started on zoloft and then they tried pretty much all the SSRI's. None really worked. It wasnt until I was on Effexor that I was able to drive, most anywhere. After some bad things happening in my life, which I now know is from being treated with AD's and being bipolar. I am starting over on the med thing. Now I am on mirtazipine and am going off. Still have panic, still depressed, getting FAT and sleeping too much. SO, the pdoc is thinking a tricyclic. I think it sounds good from what I have read, but still want to discuss going back on Effexor (venlafaxine).
Does anyone have any experience with these? I dont want meds, but right now it seems I need help. I WANT TO DRIVE. It sucks to have a nice car sitting there and taking the bus.
I hear just man up and drive. Right.
I tolerate all meds fine so far, side effects werent an issuse, just them working. Tricyclics were considered the gold standard for panic and depression. Then the new stuff came along. I really need the next med to work. Life isnt waiting around for me.
There isnt much I dont take seriously. Thats one of my biggest problems, I cant lighten up, everything is worry. I dont laugh, smile or enjoy anything in life right now. I used to. But I fell apart and I am blamed for all the bad. In the past I did do my homework on the meds and the Effexor with a beta blocker worked great. But lately I havnt had the capacity to make the decisions on meds etc. but I think my faculties are getting a lot better.
This time of my life has been extremely difficult. I was once successful with a beautiful home and family to almost homeless. So, yes I tend to take things "Seriously". One day I would like to have something related to a life I enjoy.
