Well Im doing it, driving! Not much, only a couple miles to the store and drives around the block, but I made a choice, Got insurance, went and got my car and making an effort. I could and should ( just was taught not to use should ) be doing more of it but at least its a step in yhe right direction. I still wish I knew how I drove for 30 years, everywhere and now im back to this. I have taken many positive steps to reach this point. 1. Diet, 2. Good vitamins/supplements, 3. No soda/coffee, 4. Excercise, (working out at the gym 3 days a week, 5. Attitude ( changing that! ) 6. Education ( learning all I can) 7. Willingness. 8. Quit smoking.
I must move forward and get on with my life. I was at a very bad point, not very long ago. I trying hard to move forward. My new thing I talked over with my PDoc the other day was weaning of one of my meds, an antidepressant, Mirtazapine. It makes me very groggy and hard to wake uo in the morning. So a little aprehensive about it with quitting smoking and the blahs from that, but I just plain dont like the meds so am giving it a try. Im so happy I found these sites as they have helped me a great deal. The Health Educators are wonderful. Will give a mention in my next stop, Gratitude log. I feel there is a lot to our issues we dont even think of, maybe were worn down, beat up or whatever, but some life restructuring and education can make all the difference> Have a super day! Lance
The changes make me feel good. The feeling of taking some control over your situation is great.
Having a sense of pride back in your existance is a wonderful feeling all in itself and feeling like good things may come your way again is great as well.
Still at times I beat myself up as would come from others, wife etc. since many dont understand how I bacame as bad as I was. For years I was the rock and I became utterly helpless. But I'm no longer trying to fix the past. I work on today, do the best I can and hope for a brighter tomorrow.
( forgot all the cool characters! )
I went back and was looking at a reply, WOW what a turn around!
I am going down that road !!
Jul 25, 2009 (11:18 PM) Reply | Quote
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Lance,
Before you stands a difficult road. You have lived much of your life for and with other people. Right now you are looking around and wondering how you will ever go down this road on your own. But the good news is, if you can just take a single step today, the road will slowly begin to widen and brighten in front of you. Its okay to be scared, because everyone else is on their own roads too, including most of the people on this forum, and I promise you we are all frightened as well. The first step is letting go of your guilt, its not your fault that you are the way you are. When you get through this you will be even stronger than you started out because you will be comfortable in yourself, then you can work on putting the rest back together.
Just remember, there is nothing broken that can't be fixed
Years ago, my first panic attack was while driving, so naturally I continued having problems with driving. This has been the biggest challenge. In fact the single most thing that messed up my life. Recently riding the link light rail has really bothered me as well as using escalators. Why I dont know. So I decided instead of taking the bus downtown every day to ride the light rail. I dont know if its my other changes or the exposure, but I dont have hardly any anxiety riding it now. It was so bad on past trips I was just shaking. I dont understand the escalator though and have yet to get on one.
I havn't done well at following this program, like many other things in my life, I just do it part of the way. I have so many things I begin and just dont seem to follow through and I dont know why. The panic program I got, I should read it more. Literature from the therapist and others. I just cant stay focused. I wish I knew why. I am so easily distracted and lose interest. Any thoughts?
I know I need to push myself a little harder or I will never be driving like I used to.
I just drove to the store, about a mile in traffic and it wasnt very good. Some days are better than others.
I did have a cup of coffee this morning, something I quit over a month ago.
Im still scared to venture very far, especially alone, but I know at some point I will have to.
I need to make it a point to, nightly reciew this program. If I dont take a more proactive role in this, it may never happen.
I do need to give myself a little credit though, when I first joined this site, I wasnt shopping well, in a dark pit and barely getting by.
Today, I'm very active, trying hard to move on, taking good care of myself and now shopping for the house.
