Hi Lance,
First I want to tell you how impressed I am that you have been able to accomplish so much in your life
with running your own business and also raising a family, we all know how hard that can be. so be proud of yourself.
That being said sometimes we don"t listen to our bodies when it tells us we need to slow down we just keep
going ( 60 & 70 hours a week) and push the thoughts aside, I think that after awhile the body justs lets us know
if we won't listen it will make us listen( hence panic attacks). You said that you just want your old life back I
use to tell myself the same thing, I thought that if I could be like my old self that everything would be ok, But one day
I realized that that was how I got here in the first place and that I needed to change the way I looked at things.
I too over the years have owned my own business and helped take care of sick family members, and helped
raise a daughter. But at the same time I feel like I haven't done enough and that if I'm not working or contributing
something that I am some how failing my family. I now tell myself that if I take things one step at a time and work
on myself that I can make myself better than I was before! You are a strong person lance, you have already proven
that by all that you have done you just have to take it one step at a time and regain your confidence and learn
new tools to help you deal with life's issues in a better way. one step always leads to another. Driving is
a big issue for me also, it is hard but I keep trying if I get over whelmed I work on something else and then go back to it.
work on the program and give yourself the time to change. we are all here for you.
sweatbee