I know I need to push myself a little harder or I will never be driving like I used to.
I just drove to the store, about a mile in traffic and it wasnt very good. Some days are better than others.
I did have a cup of coffee this morning, something I quit over a month ago.
Im still scared to venture very far, especially alone, but I know at some point I will have to.
I need to make it a point to, nightly reciew this program. If I dont take a more proactive role in this, it may never happen.
I do need to give myself a little credit though, when I first joined this site, I wasnt shopping well, in a dark pit and barely getting by.
Today, I'm very active, trying hard to move on, taking good care of myself and now shopping for the house.
Years ago, my first panic attack was while driving, so naturally I continued having problems with driving. This has been the biggest challenge. In fact the single most thing that messed up my life. Recently riding the link light rail has really bothered me as well as using escalators. Why I dont know. So I decided instead of taking the bus downtown every day to ride the light rail. I dont know if its my other changes or the exposure, but I dont have hardly any anxiety riding it now. It was so bad on past trips I was just shaking. I dont understand the escalator though and have yet to get on one.
I havn't done well at following this program, like many other things in my life, I just do it part of the way. I have so many things I begin and just dont seem to follow through and I dont know why. The panic program I got, I should read it more. Literature from the therapist and others. I just cant stay focused. I wish I knew why. I am so easily distracted and lose interest. Any thoughts?
