hi pete,
glad to hear you are doing and feeling better. maybe you could help me with something? you say your sister had had a "nervous breakdown" and your parents told everybody about it and will probably do the same now with you. you say you know they care about you. aren't you angry though that they didn't give you a "heads up"? this is something your sister has and you might have also? i'm trying to let go of my anger, but i'm finding it impossible. maybe i am selfish or expect too much from other people. but my mother, aunt and grandmother all had mood disorders, nobody talked about it or tried to get help for themselves and nobody warned me about it. i feel like the scapegoat - i'm the strange one. i ask too many questions. i know they care about me, too, but not enough. i feel like i was raised in quicksand, still there, and nobody throwing me a rope. anyone else feel this way? about not getting a "heads up" or warning? or am i just a big dreamer????? thanks!
) and I'm not so naive as to think there won't be a comedown some time. I just hope I can carry some of my clarity of thought with me into the darker times.
