Judi, ((((hugs)))))!!!! I think the first thing here is for you NOT to beat yourself up. That won't do any good. Regroup - yes; prepare your coping tools - yes; give yourself a big hug - yes!!!! Don't give up on yourself, 'cause we sure won't! Glad you'll be using an NRT again, and even happier you've picked the quit date. STAY CLOSE, because we're not going anywhere! Post...post...post.
Thinking of you,
Jan