Hi Carmie and Davit,
Thank you for writing me back. The good news is that I did NOT have a panic attack today, that is my posiitve and I am glad of it. I feel very very tired through, very depressed, this is normal for me through, I go through a rough panic time and then depression follows because I was unable to control myself. I know I need to go to the doctor and I need to go badly but with the agorophobia its so hard, when I first had this four years ago I was running to the Doc once or twice a week and it never really helped me so I guess I just gave up, the pain in my ovaries is scaring me too death, I have convinced myself I have ovarian cancer, I was even having visions of my hair falling out from chemotherapy and radation and being cut open in the hospital I had to yell STOP DEB!!! and push those horrible terrible thoughts from my mind, its so hard to function when you feel like that, that is why I think I sleep so much, its the only time when I am at peace from these racing scary thoughts.
I expect pain down there before my time or during it, but once its over I should NOT be having pain, unless my mind is manufacturing it?! I never heard in perimenopause that you're ovaries hurt, in fact since they are not producing eggs and are "slowing down" there should be less or no pain, and the heartburn and gas are symptoms too, how I wish I never ever looked that up, it made me worse, I looked it up to disprove my fears and it just made it worse because I DO have five symptoms.
Can anxiety and fear cause lower stomach pain? to radiate too the back? I know I have had chest pain, arm pain, headaches and upper stomach pain from it, so I guess I could have lower pain, maybe its IBS, I hear that is common with people with panic and depression, I am trying too "find" less scary reasons for the pain, if I could just STOP thinking about it perhaps it would go away, my last pelvic was very painful and I had problems afterwards so that is probably whats scaring me also.
I dont think I belong in a hospital either Davit, I think it helps some but it would not help me, I mean what could they do? they cannot pull the fear out of me. I have too do it myself. I am going to do some breathing PMR now, and I will write back or you can write me back, how I love to hear from you all. Thank you so much! I am praying too God to lead me on the right path.
