Hi Carmie,
I hope you had a nice day today. I know I hate the dizziness too that is why I cannot take a SSRI antidepressant because for some reason the dizziness and nausea is SO bad then I regurgitate, I think thats the only thing worse than panic is dizziness and nausea I do understand. Today was mixed my husband took a comment I made the wrong way and we had an argument, and I am too weak and fragile yet to argue, I do not want to argue anytime! He filled our truck tank up and it cost $84.00?! So I just said "whoa thats high" and he really started a war with me, I did not mean anything against him, more the gas prices, then he told me my hair looked terrible, so I kinda broke down in tears, its so hard to recover when so many people around you are so critical and negative, especially in you're own home, I think my period is coming and I always get super-sensitive and depressed before it, they are going out all day Saturday for about 12 hours so I know I will be home bleeding heavy and cramping, not looking forward to it, scary, but someway I will have too get through it, I have no choice.
The good news is I trimmed, colored and deep conditioned my hair today, after his comment, maybe it got me going, and it looks better, the color is a soft strawberry light blonde and even through its a homemade job, it looks a lot better, anything would of looked better, it was pretty bad, so hopefully that will life my spirits, I am going to try to walk the dogs in awhile.
I guess one day at a time for now, my friend said I need not too be so sensitive and develop a "thicker-skin" and I would like too, but she had to understand this condition takes time and courage and strength can come slowly, at least for me, I hope and pray for the day I will be strong and brave again, and not so scared and worried. You sound good, I am so glad the strep is gone, I knew the antibotic would kick in and I am so happy. Hope to hear from you soon, its so good hearing from you.