I love readin this thread! It gives me so much to think about! Must admit ( and this is my dirty little secret) I love dumb boring shows! I do! Well not all of them and not horribly dumb ones lol. But I do like them. I find them relaxing. I spend my days on the edge worrying or working with my brain trying to reach intellectual excellence. So I must admit, at night, once in a while, it feels nice to just be mindless lol! But shhhhhh, this is our secret lol! 
And yeah, things don't always turn out like we planned, I wish that sat better with me too hahahahaha! As for the team player thing. Thanks for sharing with me! Well, I always said I do better one on one then with groups! I am also not good at selling myself. I am not good at saying hey, look at me, see how good I am. I just work hard and assume people will notice. In this case, this way of doing things is not helping me at all! I am not good at singing my own praises. When asked to sing my praise all I find to say is :"Erh I am a hard worker and a good student...: /sigh...As for not being popular, I am sure the anxiety plays into it. I don't think I have social anxiety per say but I think it have little tendencies of it in certain situations. I know my anxiety mekes me look goofy or act funny sometimes. But I am working on it and getting better!
! But I am taking everyone's advice and taking my meds as need 
