Dearest Luna... in reading your post, it reminds me that life goes on. You just ignore the triggers and then they go away. Isn't that just a great feeling? So glad you had a good time and that you are back.
I had what we use to call a "kill me now" crave from you know where the other night that lasted about 3 hours. I actually questioned whether or not I would make it through it (that's when you all got my sos). Yesterday was just life. The crappy part of life, where it seems that no matter what you do nothing seems to be going right. You know what? I made it through all of that just fine. Not once... I mean not one time did I even consider smoking. In times past, I would have smoked half a pack during this period.
My point is that regardless of how far we are in our quits, the demon can hit us at any time and slam us to the ground. No one this far into our quits talks about that but I found the other day that I'm not alone and it has happened to others. When it happened to me I thought I should be above all that by now. We are all still in battle with the addiction. I don't know if that will ever end but I do know that I can make it through any situation without smoking. I also know that I can bounce right back and deal with stuff without even thinking about smoking.
This quit thing... truly is a work in process.... Amazing.
[B]My Milage:[/B]
[B]My Quit Date: [/B] 7/1/2005
[B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 268
[B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 5,368
[B]Amount Saved:[/B] $938
[B]Life Gained:[/B]
[B]Days:[/B] 23 [B]Hrs:[/B] 15 [B]Mins:[/B] 41 [B]Seconds:[/B] 24