The song worked great for that day :) I was down the flights before I knew it.
The next couple of days were filled with a bit of anxiety. I have meetings with product managers to make sure rebates are accruing correctly and a mapping session for a process we need to fix. Last weeks were not too bad, I had two of them and the answers were fairly easy but next week I have six more that are more difficult and it is close week. Always a stressful time. But since I have to work to pay the mortgage I have to deal with it. So between meetings I will put on my headphones and listen to my ipod. It is a four day workweek too so we have to finish everything quickly. Hopefully it goes smooth.
My daughter went to Maine with her boyfriend but she is really good, she texts me before she goes to bed. She knows I worry. My middle guy is staying home. Today we are leaving for a little while so he can have friends over. Teenagers have that love/hate relationship with their parents and don't want to be embarrassed by the parents with friends I guess. It is during the day so hopefully they won't get in trouble. He did clean the entire house and mopped the floor too. I was very happy with him yesterday. The day before not so much, him and his little brother got into a fist fight in the kitchen. Of course they are both taller than me so trying to rip two angry boys apart doesn't work so well. My little guy went to the summer nationals today with a friend, it is a car show and then they do burn-outs on Main street at the bridge at night. We are going out on the 4 wheelers tonight and fireworks at a field. It makes me a bit nervous because I think I can't get out of there. It is in the woods and there is a clearing where the 4 wheelers go. My friends wanted us to go to a cookout but not sure if we are doing that.
My friends have been great. One of my friends is on the same med that I am on. Celexa. I was a bit nervous to drink on it at all but last night I had about five beers. I woke up shaky and blah but not too bad. I think I scared my friend John, he is like a brother to me and when he saw how bad I was shaking and crying he did not know what to do. we ended up selling our Jimmy Buffett tickets but he called me a couple times that night to check how I was. My friend Jane emails me everyday to see how I am doing and she is very positive. I have a great circle of friends that stop by the house and check in to make sure I am ok. My husband is working third shift now and that freaks me out. He has to leave at 9:45 to get to work by 11. That has not been too bad though. I wait until he calls to let me know he got there OK then I get ready for bed. Adjustments are always hard for me, I hate change.
For the most part I am feeling a lot better, the anxiety levels have gone down a bit and I am trying to learn to deal with what is left. I am still not eating a whole lot but more that I was. I guess the positive out of that is I will lose a bit of weight. I go back to my regular dr on the 19th of July so I will see what he says then.
I hope everyone has a great day
