Hi, I'm Autumn.
I have a really hard time with anxiety and need some support getting through the day. I just returned to work and it is very important that I maintain control over my anxiety since I must rely on myself for all financial needs.
I have identified my main problem which is focusing on every pain in my body. It's like I am ultra sensitive. I have an extreme fear of dying, or just getting sick, specifically cancer. I know that sounds really crazy, but I continually go to the doctor, sometimes twice a week.
My anxiety levels are so high that my attacks can't be handled without xanax. I have really tried to manage them without meds, but the fear gets so intense that I start crying.
I recognize I am in some sort of cycle, but I can't seem to pull myself out of it. This has been going on for about six months and I have tried several different meds.
Other than this anxiety, my job is going well, I am active, and I do not have anything I can point to that could be making me have such high levels of anxiety.
I do know that I have had anxiety attacks even when I was little, maybe starting at age 10.
Anyone have any advise?