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13 years ago 0 +0 / -0 823

Yay! Lula - So proud of you! Not smoking and Okay to boot! See it can be done! Sorry your darn foot hurts; and that hubby of yours deciding to argue with you at such an inopportune time! What was he thinking?? Sheesh! But you made it! The sun might even shine now too! So that's what I'm gonna do next time too! No cave to the crave - not now that we know about NOPE! Have a good weekend

13 years ago 0 +0 / -0 57

ohhhhh it's been a rocky few days but here I am.....still quit! I found myself "looking" for excuses ands boy there were lots of them, (as Eya says) ...argument with husband, my foot hurts (after the op), it's raining lol etc. isn't it pathetic? I've got through this week and I'm okay....not smoking and okay.

Lula

13 years ago 0 +0 / -0 823

Yes - the 3 Yr! Quit Cave - not one of my prouder moments. I could say that: I had too much on my plate at the time - I'd gained so much wt, I couldn't stand myself - I was feeling down when my Dad was Dx with terminal cancer - I wanted to 'relax' with smoking buds, & 'vowed' I'd only have 1puff -I believed I could pick up my quit as soon as I got my life on track . . . BUT all those excuses were just that - EXCUSES! I did lose my extra weight fast when I relapsed and for a while even thought that made smoking worthwhile! But virtually ALL my other life issues, pains & insecurities RETURNED - larger than ever too! As a 3 yr 'closet smoker'- I spent so much time trying to quit again, it consumed me - to the point I was abusing the 'patch' - pulling it off and on to get through each unsuccessful quit attempt; some quits lasting a few days; some a few weeks! It was awful!

Until I came to SSC! - I have 'someone' to answer to here! This overrides the 2nd hand smoke (and my junkie's irrationality) I'm exposed to! I realized, finally, that I'm a dyed in the wool addict; I must say NOPE! no matter when a craving hits me out of the blue! My 3 yr later craving very well may have only lasted a few days if I'd have shored up my defenses, discovered what emotional chord was driving it - and remembered NOPE! But am currently proud of this 50+ days of NOPE! So am sharing with U not to discourage you! Just a gentle reminder that you can get through this tough time! You will be so proud of yourself when you do Lula! Thinking of you! We can DO IT!

13 years ago 0 +0 / -0 57

Oh eya , you caved after 3 whole years, that has filled me with despair. I know that in my own personal case that I can never have even one puff, I'm a total nicotine addict and one puff is enough to get me started, but 3 years.....you must be kicking yourself. Just goes to show that we can never let our guard down, NOPE NOPE NOPE forever!! (not one puff ever)

sending strong loving support thoughts to you all!!

Lula

13 years ago 0 +0 / -0 823

Hang in there Lula! Peteg is right; we have the power - not the addiction! yeah! Good that you posted here - I caved after 3 whole years quit. The craving came out of the blue - I thought it would be OK to just have a single little puff - Wish I hadn't done that as it derailed my quit and took 3 yrs to get back on track.

I hope you find something to replace the crave - exercise outdoors truly is doing wonders for me lately - also nutrition and vitamin/mineral supplements lately have been a blessing. Sending a hug your way. <3

13 years ago 0 +0 / -0 206

One of the HUGE mistakes I've consistently made in the past was to equate the weariness with a building up of some kind of nicotene deprivation pressure inside my body. One puff, or even one cigarette, would somehow serve as a "release valve" to let some of that pressure out and make me feel better.

WRONG!!! I'm learning to listen to my body thanking me every minute of every day, and realizing that whatever "pressure" is building up is simply that part of my brain that does not want me to cut off its supply of nicotene. The only way to release the pressure is to name it and let it go. I have the power here now, not the addiction.

Not sure if that helps...

peteg

13 years ago 0 +0 / -0 57

It’s incredible what we can learn from each other, we all have the same goal but I’m now starting to realise that we have an extremely individualistic approach to the way we go about it. I’ve got so much to think about it, it didn’t occur to me that I still had phases to go through (how naive is that), I thought that automatically reaching 6 – 7 months would mean puffff, away goes the craving, can’t tell you how disillusioned I am to find it’s not the case!

Yes to all the comments: smoking won’t change the situation...any situation regardless of the whys and why not’s: battle talk and arms : suggesting that they would fight -- and win -- on my behalf (can’t tell you how many times I thought these were the magic potions and now I can see they’re not) : Tiana mentioned weariness and tiring, I am very sure about one thing, I must not give in to this quit this time because I’m convinced that this is my last chance to stop, I believe this because I know that if I give in this time then I won’t have the strength or the inclination to try again.

I’m off to re-read my books, my diary and to calm myself down.

Can’t thank you all enough, 2 days, 51 days, 211 days and over 1000 days.....way to go!
WE CAN DO THIS.

13 years ago 0 +0 / -0 653

Hi folks,

No matter your vocabulary for it, I am sorry to hear of your collective weariness of your situation. It is tiring, and that is an understatement. And it does sound like a fight which one might want to avoid by just giving in. Do remember that have a smoke fixes nothing! Keep your aresenal of friends at the ready! It will get better and your bodies will love you for it.

Stay strong- keep us posted. Let us know how we can help.

Tiana, Health Educator

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13 years ago 0 +0 / -0 206

Cool answer!!

Makes me want to run out and buy a bike!

Then I come to my senses.... give me four tires and four doors, helmets not required.

(Unless you're driving in a state in the mid-Atlantic that shall remain nameless, but where a tank is the safest way to get from one end to the other...)

peteg

13 years ago 0 +0 / -0 377

Lula,

I kind of relate to what you are going through. It's what I call the period where you forget how bad smoking really is along on one hand and life with all its ups and downs that carry on in a mundane sorts of way. The good news is this is actually only another phase. It's not addiction to nicotine but more about feeling something is missing. At the beginning of our quits it's exciting, difficult, and at the same time you are at your strongest. Then as you get over the hurdles you start to calm down on your guard and so you think the addiction is now over. The problem is you are now realizing that there is the next phase which is what you are going through. Mine lasted off and on for 3 or so months. Remember though it's not like a feeling of having to go smoke a cigarette at all but more of just a little let down sadness feeling. Some of the things I found help out are to go back to really finding some fun rewards for yourself. Another thing that helps is to change up your routine a little. I bought a bike and started riding around more and it made me feel good about myself. We need to keep doing new things and learning. Finally just sitting with the feeling and not judging it can help you to realize that it's not you and it's not permanent.

Smoking never is going to change the situation. This time period is just temporary. Look at it as an interesting development in your journey to be smoke free. It really has no power at all over what you have chosen for yourself. Ron

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