Babygirl,,,, I love that name! lol. Guess what babe, you already completed step one! You admitted that you are a failure!! But you really are not a failure, you just need to see and to realize that what you think is your friend is actually something that is trying to destroy you at a slow pace and up to now, its winning. You want that cig but you know its the wrong choice to continue. You are angry and that is so cool! Now get even more angry, but only this time, get angry at what the addiction is doing to you. Turn your anger into your friend instead of your cigs. I am sure that you know what cigs can do to you. But that really dont matter now. What matters is that you understand that you need to change things in your life if you want to continue to live it. "Change" is one of the most important issues in your quit. In order to keep your quit, you must change your life in many ways. If you panic you must change that as well. Hey babe, you are not alone. Panic is the feeling you get when you know some thing needs to be corrected. Its that simple. Work on one issue at a time. Seems like you have been down this road b4, so you know that you have to be tough and remain that way for the duration. Take one second at a time and work on one issue at a time. Your addiction is your addiction, no one elses. Thats where this site helps. Learn about your addiction and learn what it does to you. But in all actuallality, you dont want that cig, you want that addiction. So now you must change the addiction. IT CAN BE DONE! Its all in your head and you need to realize that you can control your addiction. It just takes time and it takes a strong attitude. We will give you the strong attitude, you need to except it and keep it strong. I will promise you one thing babygirl, I will promise you that if you really want to do this, you will get all the help you need from the people on this site. We will not pick you up off the ground, rather we will catch you before you fall.
You must change your life style. That is, you must eliminate what is accociated with smoking. That is so important. If the cig goes with the coffee, you must eliminate it totally. Same goes for the stress ponts. Remember, stress is a triger point. Work on the bigest triger points first. If you need help wit