OH TOOTIE!!!! OMG!! i AM SOOOO proud of you!!!! So many times i have lost my effort when i find a pack of my smokes in my barn coat or in some other place! I even had to stop going to the same gas station i have been to all these years! Either i ask for cigarettes without even realizing it or the cashiers know me and know i take three packs without fail every morning. They just get them out! and i could never tell them no..I quit. I AM SO SO GLAD FOR YOU!!!! That was such a hard thing i am sure! Yay yay yay!! Yesterday was hard for me too. I yearned for them..but i so look forward to reading the posts from you all that it helps..when i crave the most i go to my computer and lose myself in your help and support! And the humor here is awesome..it seems so many have that demented glib humor that i love!~he he he! hang in there baby! you can do it! (say that with the Arnold Swartzineger accent! hahahaha) And i know my spelling is totally suckin but its mostly because i think faster than i type and am like a puppy running over the keyboard! YEEHAW IM OUTTA HERE...WILL CHECK ON YOU LATER! [B]My Milage:[/B] [B]My Quit Date: [/B] 2/11/2007 [B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 5 [B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 360 [B]Amount Saved:[/B] $60 [B]Life Gained:[/B] [B]Days:[/B] 0 [B]Hrs:[/B] 11 [B]Mins:[/B] 12 [B]Seconds:[/B] 59

I very much don't like to be told no! I am self indulgent and completely have no will power! That is a good analogy that we try to make up for childhoods. I suppose i should send you all a check for what eighty bucks? haha..you should all be getting paid! So far, i think you have all given more support and given me pause to reflect on why i am doing things, way more than any shrink i saw growing up!! TWO THUMBS UP GUYS! IM STILL HERE, and getting over myself a bit..not so sensitive, and STILL not smokin! GOTTA LOVE THAT! Yeah yeah, don't pat myself too much right! hahahahahhahaha I hope that i can come to that point where i help someone else the way you have all helped me! HAPPY VALENTINES DAY!!! Thankyou Nonic...unfortunately Chantix is not an option wellbutrin either, I am getting there though. It so helps me to come chat, and get feedback from yall! [B]My Milage:[/B] [B]My Quit Date: [/B] 2/11/2007 [B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 3 [B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 244 [B]Amount Saved:[/B] $36 [B]Life Gained:[/B] [B]Days:[/B] 0 [B]Hrs:[/B] 7 [B]Mins:[/B] 37 [B]Seconds:[/B] 54

Dang..I AM A TOTAL WIMP! Everytime i read a post with what i percieve as criticism i want to never come back. I get hurt and embarassed and mad...but guess what..i was not thinking about my smokes:) So i am going to whine a bit more here and maybe get some advice from you all again. When you smoke the amount that i did for so long, i am finding it difficult to get that "i want, i want..." out of my head. I am only a couple days out of the gate, and my triggers are clearer now than they were when i just wanted one all the time. So i find myself browsing the fridge constantly looking for snacks. I am concentrating on stopping that today...i don't want to substitute another addiction for the one i trying to get past now. I guess i don't need advice as much as i just need to get it off my chest. I have three kids at home that are young and not alot of adult conversation...so it's hard to blow off steam when i need to! It is amazing what a coping mechanism that smokes are. I started when i was eleven and graduated to over three packs a day when i was a teenager. And you are so right that you don't use your coping skills when you have cigarettes. Every response i have to stuff is LIGHT A CIGARETTE!!! Well...was. It is getting better. I cannot use the patch becauase of allergies to adhesives and already take antidepressant so..i just kind of went cold turkey. Is periodic dizzyness something you have expereinced? Just a quick head spin here and there. By the way, i thought my Dr. was going to do a cartwheel when i told her i was going to quit again. She has been harping for a long time! I say that affectionetly, but she really was happy! Thankyou again everyone for your support..and critisism. I might as well learn to deal with that without a smoke too!! yeehaw! I AM ON MY WAY!!!! [B]My Milage:[/B] [B]My Quit Date: [/B] 2/11/2007 [B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 2 [B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 163 [B]Amount Saved:[/B] $24 [B]Life Gained:[/B] [B]Days:[/B] 0 [B]Hrs:[/B] 5 [B]Mins:[/B] 3 [B]Seconds:[/B] 52

babygirl, I like the name. So glad to hear from you. You can come here rant and rave all you want, we are here to listen and hopefully help you get through the rough spots. You are going to be angry and alone for awaile you have lost something that has been with you for so many years,only you thought it was helping you when it was hurting you so bad. It has controll of you and you have to fight with all your might to keep him at bay. The nicodemon is a bad egg that you have to get out of your life and we are all here to help you. I can not use the patch either. I am using chantix and it is so awsome. It works on your brain to stop the crave. Go to there web site. Hope to hear from you soon. jnine :) ;) :confuse: ;p [B]My Milage:[/B] [B]My Quit Date: [/B] 1/14/2007 [B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 32 [B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 657 [B]Amount Saved:[/B] $88 [B]Life Gained:[/B] [B]Days:[/B] 4 [B]Hrs:[/B] 7 [B]Mins:[/B] 7 [B]Seconds:[/B] 33

Baby, hang around here all day if you can. Lots of people will talk you through the next 24 hours and once you're through that day and then week 1, you'll be feeling better. I know you can do it. Marie

babygirl There is a product that you might consider. Chantix is a pill that mimics what nic does in the pleasure centers of the brain. I don't know anything about it beyond that, but a good number of people here have used it. You will of course discuss this with your doctor... Stay well, this can be done... nonic

babygirl: Take a look at this and see if you can relate to the sentiment... For to many years I have been emotionally attached to the world by an umbilical chord of thin blue smoke. This journey has caused me to take a look at why I allowed myself to develop such a sad relationship with the world. This has actually been useful to me in stopping, because I need to understand the whole of it in order to change the pieces around. Smoking has been a part of me for a long long time. And make no mistake; I have been its willing companion. An amazing magician is this substance. When I was hurt it told me everything would be alright as long as I didn't actually feel the pain. And I believed it. And I never learned to grieve. When I got angry it told me everything would be alright as long as I didn't defend myself. And I believed it. And I never learned to communicate. When I was afraid, it told me everything would be alright as long as I never tasted the fear. And I believed it. And I never learned to cope. When I was happy, it convinced me it was my friend as long as I took it to the party. And I believed it. And I never felt total joy. So here we are now or should I say here I am, the smoke is becoming a distant memory. However, it has left me with a great deal of learning to do. Each day is a challenge, as I am finally learning how to deal with the fire of my emotions without first dulling them on nicotine�s anvil. I feel very self conscious, hoping that my verbiage is not taken as an attack, praying that I can be accepting of others ways without the perception of rejection, remaining within myself without causing others pain or embarrassment. I am having to watch myself very closely. Perhaps in the end this is what this journey is all about. I know I am meeting myself for the first time in a long time and it is a bit akward. I really do like who I am; I just need to be sure that the world is ready for the new/old me. I hope you are all well this evening. My heart goes out to each and every one of you as you go through this. It truly is worth the walk. I would like to meet each and every one of you in the land of the ex-smoker one of these fine days. Nonic

babygirl I hear you and I understand...Lets clear 1 thing up, you are not an idiot, you are an addict, just like we are all addicts. Now relax just a bit here, since your husband is not a smoker I promise you he cannot concieve of the difficulty you are having. So It might be better to just say to him, "I am going to be a bit off for a little while as I begin to heal"... The best thing that you can do for yourself right now is to begin planning this quit. You will need to learn as much as you can about our common addiction and develop coping skills that will help you be smoke free forever. Use all of the tools here and feel free to ask advice of anyone on the site. I am a baby on this walk myself and but I will assure you that et does get better. You can help yourself by deciding that this is a good experience for you because you are ridding yourself of all of the garbage that we have been breathing for years. Once you have faced this thing straight up, you will feel very empowered. You jst have to begin from a place of purpose...And that begins with a long and straight forward discussion with yourself because in the end each of us must face our addiction ourselves in our own way, but because there are so many caring and understanding people here you will never be alone... nonic

Jaset Thank you for the word...no I am not going any place soon, I like this place and it has saved my quit any number of times...Your right this is a mind game...It is this realization that keeps me on the watch tower all the time...And it is nothing short of substance abuse...Your also right about life in this form being precious and transient...We will all get through this with patience and puposeful intention...I will see you someday soon in the strange land of the ex-smoker... Stay well and strong and hurry on down to quittentown nonic

opps forgot the stats nonic [B]My Milage:[/B] [B]My Quit Date: [/B] 12/25/2006 [B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 49 [B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 1,196 [B]Amount Saved:[/B] $343 [B]Life Gained:[/B] [B]Days:[/B] 9 [B]Hrs:[/B] 6 [B]Mins:[/B] 18 [B]Seconds:[/B] 41