Hi tryagain,
I have felt like you. I can remember being where you are (mentally) almost exactly a year ago. I just wanted to share a thought that kept me going during that time-the point that you are now at in your quit (the worst time I ever felt was around 13 days too). My boyfriend and I quit together, and whenever I was feeling anxious, craving ect, he would say something to the effect of "Doesn't the fact that it is so painful/hard to quit make you feel strong? We know we are conquering something pretty immense (addiction) because of the pain of it all....we are doing a pretty good job making it past (blank #) days, so lets keep going." Hearing him say that always made me feel tougher, like it may be hard...but my mind is tougher than any cravings. I don't know if that will mean anything to you, but it made me feel like the pain in its way was beautiful because it meant I was doing something good for myself. If you think about it, you are saving your life tryagain and you will feel so happy that you did (After a month you will start to feel pretty good/proud). I was you last year...not depressed but miserable from fighting, I remember it so clearly. What I did back then was not worrying about anything that I didn't have to worry about, pampered myself at every opportunity, and went running whenever I could...my cravings definitely subsided when I was exhausted and had those endorphins running through me! My extreme cravings subsided after a month, and then after that I would just get the occasional urge (usually I would post on here when I had a bad one) and by 4 months I felt secure in my quit. Now a year later I see people smoking and I think of it as something I used to do, not something I want to do. It's amazing what time does, the pain/cravings will never be what they are right now (so keep going-you don't want to have to redo day 13 again-it only gets better from here). You can do it, and we are all here for you when you need it :-)!
[B]My Milage:[/B]
[B]My Quit Date: [/B] 2/6/2006
[B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 368
[B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 7,373
[B]Amount Saved:[/B] $2189.6
[B]Life Gained:[/B]
[B]Days:[/B] 26 [B]Hrs:[/B] 5 [B]Mins:[/B] 47 [B]Seconds:[/B] 19