Okay,
I have been relatively okay since my quit. I must admit.
I don't know if this is a side effect of not smoking or not, but today, I am really, really depressed.
Yes, I fought with my BF the past few days. I guess the arguments were not very serious. Maybe they were. I don't know anymore.
I feel like I have lost my gauge on things. Things that may be minor have suddenly become pretty huge or maybe they were always huge but smoking allowed me to feel like they were minor.
I simply don't know.
I don't want to smoke, but I want to know why I feel this way. I want to kick something and I want to scream but I am not even sure why I am so angry.
I guess the smoking curbed my anger. I don't know.
I am starting to feel like I have a lousy personality but smoking masked that. Seriously.
I feel like a bee-yatch.
I am also very sad. Very sad. I want to cry and cry.
Urgh.
[B]My Milage:[/B]
[B]My Quit Date: [/B] 5/15/2006
[B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 10
[B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 210
[B]Amount Saved:[/B] $35
[B]Life Gained:[/B]
[B]Days:[/B] 0 [B]Hrs:[/B] 19 [B]Mins:[/B] 27 [B]Seconds:[/B] 10
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Quit Meter
$45,346.95
Amount Saved
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Quit Meter
Days: 5371
Hours: 6
Minutes: 48
Seconds: 8
Life Gained
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Quit Meter
45805
Smoke Free Days
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Quit Meter
916,100
Cigarettes Not Smoked