I am feeling pretty down right now. After 60 + days I went out and bought a pack. I never even thought of buying a pack before today, I just walked in and did it without thinking, just before going to work.
Smoked a couple this afternoon and a few tonight and threw the rest away...All this time I have been able to get past the craving, the thoughts and anything else thrown at me. I used the patch for 6 weeks, had to step down faster at the end because I was getting real bad reactions to the adhesive. Been off for 3 weeks. I have made it through bad days of depression late in this quit. The beginning of my quit was fairly easy. Now it is just getting to me. I just had to do this and get it out of my system. Not sure why...
I do not plan to keep smoking again. I know I can't. Whatever this horrible feeling I had was, didn't get better with the cigs, and it didn't help. I knew it wouldn't and I couldn't get here to read and post when it got to me..
I did so well and everyone so proud of me and my hubby so supportive, even during the crying spells. He said you smoked 35 years, don't expect it all to get better in 60 days. Give it time. I couldn't have gotten this far without him. He is at a class and I will have to tell him when he gets home what I did...
In the 35 years I have smoked I never made it more than 2 hours, this is my first real attempt at quitting this monstrous habit, so I am proud of what I have accomplished, as I have never tried this hard before. just not too happy right now, but in a way, glad I did this, I had to get it out of my system.
I will be sitting here awaiting any spankings you all want to dish out!! Thanks for letting me vent!!! :mad:
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