Depression

Nonic, Thanks. I had another really bad, bad morning. I have gained a couple of pounds since I quit, which really really scares me and this morning I have been beating myself up over it. I have never been thin or one of those crazy nuts who thinks I will ever be a size 3. I am a 12 and normally am pretty happy with it. I usually feel pretty good about myself. I thought I was a great mom, great wife, great at my job.... but this morning I was doubting everything. I was beating myself into the ground that I was fat, fat, fat, and that I was only going to get fatter (I am sure this is the junky saying.."smoke and you won't eat") and that I am moody now so I am not a very good wife and I don't have hardly any energy right now so I am not a very good mother...etc.... This really sucks... I have cried more in the last two weeks than I have in my life. I lost my grandmother (who I loved more than I could ever explain)in November of 2005, my mother-in-law of 18 years in November of 2006 and my father-in-law in April of this year. My father-in-law lived with us the last 5 or 6 months and died in our home. So, I have alot of other emotional crap going on as well. I may not have picked a really great time to quit, but have made the commitment now and I WILL NOT GIVE UP. I am also having a real crazy tight feeling in my chest that I have never really had before. I am sure this is anxiety/stress. I found a couple of posts where other people have had this as well. Just kind of scary. I know I smoked for 20 years, but I did do regular physicals and everything is always perfect. I am never sick and the side effects I am having are freaking me out. I have NOBODY to talk to. My husband smokes and he is really being good now about not doing it in front of me and being as kind as he can, but I can't help feeling resentful. I am angry with him for being able to keep smoking. We normally have a really great relationship. Our friends/family make fun of us that we like each other so much. Now I am having thoughts of leaving him. Isn't that nuts???? I know I never will, but I keep thinking it. CRAZY! Okay - I have yammered on forever... sorry. Sometimes it feels really good to just say everything that I am thinking. [B]My Milage:[/B] [B]My Quit Date: [/B]6/12/2007 [B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 10 [B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 250 [B]Amount Saved:[/B] $50.00 [B]Life Gained:[/B] [B]Days:[/B] 0 [B]Hrs:[/B] 21 [B]Mins:[/B] 7 [B]Seconds:[/B] 5

Who else quit in June?

ex-roller, I quit June 12, 2007. Would be proud to be part of a June group!! Janna [B]My Milage:[/B] [B]My Quit Date: [/B]6/12/2007 [B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 10 [B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 250 [B]Amount Saved:[/B] $50.00 [B]Life Gained:[/B] [B]Days:[/B] 0 [B]Hrs:[/B] 21 [B]Mins:[/B] 7 [B]Seconds:[/B] 39

Happy Friday! Shout another smoke free weekend!

smoke free in Indianapolis, Indiana [B]My Milage:[/B] [B]My Quit Date: [/B]6/12/2007 [B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 10 [B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 250 [B]Amount Saved:[/B] $50.00 [B]Life Gained:[/B] [B]Days:[/B] 0 [B]Hrs:[/B] 21 [B]Mins:[/B] 7 [B]Seconds:[/B] 44

Supernova has 90 days! Bartman has 91!

you both are amazing - you give us beginners something to look forward to. IT CAN BE DONE! [B]My Milage:[/B] [B]My Quit Date: [/B]6/12/2007 [B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 10 [B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 250 [B]Amount Saved:[/B] $50.00 [B]Life Gained:[/B] [B]Days:[/B] 0 [B]Hrs:[/B] 21 [B]Mins:[/B] 7 [B]Seconds:[/B] 49

Who else quit in June?

June Jammers? [B]My Milage:[/B] [B]My Quit Date: [/B]6/12/2007 [B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 10 [B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 250 [B]Amount Saved:[/B] $50.00 [B]Life Gained:[/B] [B]Days:[/B] 0 [B]Hrs:[/B] 21 [B]Mins:[/B] 12 [B]Seconds:[/B] 2

today is just one of those days

I haven't been quit long enough to give you advice, just to say You have made it to 21 days and I know how hard the first few days were, I know you do not want to go through that again. I am sure it is still hard at 21 days, but I wouldn't want to go through the hell I did that first week again for anything. Hang in there!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! YOU CAN DO IT (said in the little dude's voice from "The Waterboy") [B]My Milage:[/B] [B]My Quit Date: [/B]6/12/2007 [B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 10 [B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 250 [B]Amount Saved:[/B] $50.00 [B]Life Gained:[/B] [B]Days:[/B] 0 [B]Hrs:[/B] 21 [B]Mins:[/B] 12 [B]Seconds:[/B] 49

**JUNERS** Rollcall....\m/ \m/

Hey guys!! glad to be a part of the group! Lainey - love your "Dory" picture.... Now I am singing... "just keep swimming, just keep swimming, just keep swimming". How appropriate!!! [B]My Milage:[/B] [B]My Quit Date: [/B]6/12/2007 [B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 12 [B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 300 [B]Amount Saved:[/B] $60.00 [B]Life Gained:[/B] [B]Days:[/B] 1 [B]Hrs:[/B] 2 [B]Mins:[/B] 0 [B]Seconds:[/B] 13

losing my voice?

Mamakitty: ME TOO! I don't have the problem with my throat, but the tight chest is really bothering me. I keep reading that it can be anxiety and such, but as soon as you wake up?????? I also read several posts that say it is your body healing. Doesn't feel like healing to me either. Makes me feel a lot better that someone else has this too. I believe it is better than it was a few days ago. I also am still having huge problems with the spaced out feeling/disoriented. I felt fine earlier, but like right now I feel almost a little dizzy and not quite with it. I am at 13 days..... when will I feel normal again???? Sorry Mamakitty. I am no help at all. Well maybe it makes you feel better to know you are not the only one and it is probably normal. LMAO! Janna :p [B]My Milage:[/B] [B]My Quit Date: [/B]6/12/2007 [B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 13 [B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 325 [B]Amount Saved:[/B] $65.00 [B]Life Gained:[/B] [B]Days:[/B] 1 [B]Hrs:[/B] 3 [B]Mins:[/B] 19 [B]Seconds:[/B] 17

Does anybody else have a spouse still smoking???

I feel like such a louse today! I traded in depression for hateful yesterday. (Secretly, it felt alot better to be mad than depressed.) My husband still smokes and he is trying not to do it around me, but I still smell it all over him and we were together all weekend - him going out to smoke every hour or so and coming back in smelling of cigarettes to high heaven. He leaves his cigarettes on the counter in our kitchen with the lighter. This always bothers me a little. It is really hard to smell it and see it and know it is right there if I want to grab it, but Sunday I think I really wanted it bad and I was angry, angry, angry that he leaves them there. I have asked him before to please leave them in the garage...etc. Sometimes I believe with all of my heart he wants me to fail. I believe he wants me to smoke so he doesn't feel guilty about it and he can smoke all the time and not worry about having to go outside, etc. Maybe it is all in my head. I feel like he comes in from smoking and intentionally comes near me, kisses me, hugs me, sits next to me.... whatever he can to get close. Or maybe he has always been this affectionate and I just am sensitive to it now. Does anybody else have a spouse still smoking??? [B]My Milage:[/B] [B]My Quit Date: [/B]6/12/2007 [B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 13 [B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 325 [B]Amount Saved:[/B] $65.00 [B]Life Gained:[/B] [B]Days:[/B] 1 [B]Hrs:[/B] 3 [B]Mins:[/B] 20 [B]Seconds:[/B] 17

Get on board the Quit Train!

Could you add me as well? [B]My Milage:[/B] [B]My Quit Date: [/B]6/12/2007 [B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 13 [B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 325 [B]Amount Saved:[/B] $65.00 [B]Life Gained:[/B] [B]Days:[/B] 1 [B]Hrs:[/B] 3 [B]Mins:[/B] 27 [B]Seconds:[/B] 25