June-Bug Check up

Zazz, you know I think that "Pressure over the whole quiting thing" is a big part of it. I feel like everyone is watching me waiting for me to fail. I have made it sooooo important (and it is). And in some ways, maybe everyone in my life is kind of watching me because they all smoke and I am the leader of smokers. If I can quit, then they have no more excuses because if I can do it anyone can. I really need to go back and read some of the funnier posts and look at the lighter side of this. I am just getting too heavy. Then the other thing is too, I noticed that when I feel the crying jags comming on that I have heard other people talk about, I think I tend to start feeling sorry for myself and I have to think up reasons to feel that way rather than just saying, oh, it's just the withdrawl talking. [B]My Milage:[/B] [B]My Quit Date: [/B] 6/1/2006 [B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 11 [B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 463 [B]Amount Saved:[/B] $62.7 [B]Life Gained:[/B] [B]Days:[/B] 1 [B]Hrs:[/B] 5 [B]Mins:[/B] 32 [B]Seconds:[/B] 21

June-Bug Check up

Ok, so it's monday, and I'm back at work... That episode with my mother really set me back a bunch! I had a crave that wouldn't quit and I ended up having to just go to bed rather than give in to it. I'm still feeling really really sad and I have been reading on the site all morning. This is 11 days and I don't know why but it seems like for me, I am going through hell week in inconsecutive days. The first week, some of the days were easy! Now I am still not sleeping and having long long craves that nothing seems to completly releave. One thing is, not only did that make me crave a cigarette but it gave amo to the nicodemon because it says "see, no one is proud of you or even cares if you smoke or not" I feel so alone and unsupported when I am not on the site. Many of you have husbands and wives, I am totally alone. I think my mom and daughter want me to smoke. But being back at work today helps. Now if only I could do something productive instead of just read on this website all day! Mama [B]My Milage:[/B] [B]My Quit Date: [/B] 6/1/2006 [B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 11 [B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 462 [B]Amount Saved:[/B] $62.7 [B]Life Gained:[/B] [B]Days:[/B] 1 [B]Hrs:[/B] 5 [B]Mins:[/B] 24 [B]Seconds:[/B] 53

June-Bug Check up

I agree but I certainly am not very used to "talking back" to my mom. I am very engrained in respecting my elders and I am afraid of aleinating her or offending her. i asked my daughter to put the cigs away but I guess she forgot again. I don't know if they are actually trying to sabatoging me or they are just being thoughtless. I feel better now after I went and did 45 min. on the treadmill. Maybe after a while I will be able to handle it better, but right now, the smell of it in my car drove me crazy. I talked to my grown son who is close to my mother and he also says just tell her not to smoke around me. He says that even if she is offended, she will get over it because she needs me very badly right now. He also offered to talk to her for me but I think that tomorrow when I bring dinner I may say something to her. Mama Mama [B]My Milage:[/B] [B]My Quit Date: [/B] 6/1/2006 [B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 11 [B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 440 [B]Amount Saved:[/B] $62.7 [B]Life Gained:[/B] [B]Days:[/B] 1 [B]Hrs:[/B] 3 [B]Mins:[/B] 59 [B]Seconds:[/B] 11

June-Bug Check up

Well, I really need to vent today. I was having a perfectly lovely day, just not smoking. I took my son the two hours to his summer camp (driving isn't real easy for me not to smoke but I didn't even crave) Then after I got home, I had to take my mother to the grocery store. She has COPD and can't really get around on her own anymore. SHE SMOKED IN MY CAR!!!! I CAN'T BELEIVE IT!!! IT'S BAD ENOUGH WHEN SHE SMOKES IN FRONT OF ME AT HER HOUSE BUT IN MY CAR!! I tryed to pretend it didn't bother me, but boy it started me craving sooooo bad. I am still craving over it. It's really dumb because one of the major reasons I am quiting is so I won't be helpless in my old age like her. I don't want to be sick all the time and need to be pushed around in a wheelchair at walmart. I don't want to be the same burden to my kids. I want to be able to play with grandchildren and be the leader of my family. So the irrational thoughts are here and even more unfair, my daughters cigs are out on the patio again. I hate that voice inside that tell me, one won't hurt, no one will know. But the worse thing is that I feel so sorry for myself! Why do I have to be the leader and example. Why do I have to do it under almost impossible conditions. Oh boy, I just want to start smoking and forget this whole thing. I am also getting very very angry with my Mom. I respect my elders and all but first I had to live though her alcoholism as a child and now this. I didn't realize untill recently that she also started me on a life long addiction to nicotine that I will be struggling with all my life. I don't know what to do about that. I can't avoid her because someone has to take care of her, but I also don't want to make an enemy of her either. So far, all I do is what I have to and then I leave as quickly as possible. Twice I have spent the rest of the day suffering the crave that comes from it. I know this is way to long, but I just don't know where else I can say all this and not offend anyone. [B]My Milage:[/B] [B]My Quit Date: [/B] 6/1/2006 [B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 10 [B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 433 [B]Amount Saved:[/B] $57 [B]Life Gained:[/B] [B]Days:[/B] 1 [B]Hrs:[/B] 3 [B]Mins:[/B] 32 [B]Seconds:[/B] 3

Let the Bitterness Go

Last night my 16 year old daughter was late home and violated her curfew. All the emotions made me want to smoke, but smoking would not help. When this stuff happened when I smoked, I would smoke cig. after cig. but I still was mad and scared the same as not smoking. I told myself that smoking would not make it any better at all and got through it. she was ok and now she's grounded so I don't have to worry about that again for a while. I don't understand how smoking covers emotions. I still felt them. As a matter of fact, it was soooo the same. but somehow we believe that it is going to help so we have a crave. [B]My Milage:[/B] [B]My Quit Date: [/B] 6/1/2006 [B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 10 [B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 418 [B]Amount Saved:[/B] $57 [B]Life Gained:[/B] [B]Days:[/B] 1 [B]Hrs:[/B] 2 [B]Mins:[/B] 38 [B]Seconds:[/B] 23

Attn: June Quitters, Join the June-Bugs

thank you josie, I see how to do it now. Mama [B]My Milage:[/B] [B]My Quit Date: [/B] 6/1/2006 [B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 10 [B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 418 [B]Amount Saved:[/B] $57 [B]Life Gained:[/B] [B]Days:[/B] 1 [B]Hrs:[/B] 2 [B]Mins:[/B] 36 [B]Seconds:[/B] 24

A totally new day

Still doing much better today BF! Thank you soooo much for asking. I am looking forward to the weekend. This has been such a long work week. It's too hard to concentrate and I feel very guilty that I really am not getting much done. I hope my focus is better by monday. How are you feeling? Mama [B]My Milage:[/B] [B]My Quit Date: [/B] 6/1/2006 [B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 8 [B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 338 [B]Amount Saved:[/B] $45.6 [B]Life Gained:[/B] [B]Days:[/B] 0 [B]Hrs:[/B] 21 [B]Mins:[/B] 33 [B]Seconds:[/B] 3

A totally new day

Still doing much better today BF! Thank you soooo much for asking. I am looking forward to the weekend. This has been such a long work week. It's too hard to concentrate and I feel very guilty that I really am not getting much done. I hope my focus is better by monday. How are you feeling? Mama [B]My Milage:[/B] [B]My Quit Date: [/B] 6/1/2006 [B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 8 [B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 338 [B]Amount Saved:[/B] $45.6 [B]Life Gained:[/B] [B]Days:[/B] 0 [B]Hrs:[/B] 21 [B]Mins:[/B] 32 [B]Seconds:[/B] 25

Stopping Smoking - The Simple Way

I also read the Allan Carr book and I did really like it. I think it really really oversimplifies it and minimizes it though and if you are the type that likes to know the truth no matter how narly it is, it isn't for you. I bought his stuff about the 3 min. craves and that after 3 days it all pretty much goes away and nearly had my head blown off by a long crave on day 6. thanks to the people on this site I made it through and learned a valuable lesson from it. IT IS NOT AT ALL THAT SIMPLE TO QUIT SMOKING, BUT IT IS POSSIBLE!!! Thank you, Melba [B]My Milage:[/B] [B]My Quit Date: [/B] 6/1/2006 [B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 8 [B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 335 [B]Amount Saved:[/B] $45.6 [B]Life Gained:[/B] [B]Days:[/B] 0 [B]Hrs:[/B] 21 [B]Mins:[/B] 20 [B]Seconds:[/B] 18

WEEKEND PLEDGES...

Wow, I forgot it was friday! Yes, I am smoke free here in Houston Texas! Mama [B]My Milage:[/B] [B]My Quit Date: [/B] 6/1/2006 [B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 8 [B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 335 [B]Amount Saved:[/B] $45.6 [B]Life Gained:[/B] [B]Days:[/B] 0 [B]Hrs:[/B] 21 [B]Mins:[/B] 22 [B]Seconds:[/B] 4