Fear

Hi Rob47, I totally understand your fear of losing your quit. I had posted before about how I've been babying my quit. Making sure I didn't do anything or go around anybody who may trigger the cravings. I also have a strong fear of failure, so I'm hoping that will take me far when I am feeling weak. Fear is a normal response as well to things we don't understand. No one knows what the future has in store for us, but I hope to face it all as a non-smoker. By the by, Congratulations on 25 days! [color=Red]redrosie[/color] [B]My Milage:[/B] [B]My Quit Date: [/B] 1/1/2006 [B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 74 [B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 1,789 [B]Amount Saved:[/B] $614.2 [B]Life Gained:[/B] [B]Days:[/B] 7 [B]Hrs:[/B] 6 [B]Mins:[/B] 16 [B]Seconds:[/B] 18

Restless Leg

It's funny for me to read this today as my hubby and I were just talking about this yesterday. We both get restless leg syndrome at times. About once or twice a week for me. Thinking back I have not noticed an increase since my quit. I suggest seeing your Doc. as you must be getting very uncomfortable and frustrated with so many episodes a day. (I find them very irritating) [color=Red]redrosie[/color] [B]My Milage:[/B] [B]My Quit Date: [/B] 1/1/2006 [B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 74 [B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 1,789 [B]Amount Saved:[/B] $614.2 [B]Life Gained:[/B] [B]Days:[/B] 7 [B]Hrs:[/B] 6 [B]Mins:[/B] 16 [B]Seconds:[/B] 48

Funny story!

Wow Iwin, I can't believe how insensitive your boss is. To smoke around all of you when he shouldn't even be smoking in the building is so rude. And leaving candles burning is sooo dangerous. You are right, you should get hazard pay. I'm a softy at heart and tend to let people live their own lives how they want, but you must say something to him. Get your fellow co-workers to band with you and tell him you WILL NOT work in those conditions. He can't fire you cause you can tell his boss, or labor board he was smoking in the office. We all know how bad 2nd hand smoke is. He must too. [color=Red]redrosie[/color] [B]My Milage:[/B] [B]My Quit Date: [/B] 1/1/2006 [B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 74 [B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 1,799 [B]Amount Saved:[/B] $614.2 [B]Life Gained:[/B] [B]Days:[/B] 7 [B]Hrs:[/B] 7 [B]Mins:[/B] 14 [B]Seconds:[/B] 11

I Made A Promise So Here I Am...Help Please!!

Once again I am deeply touched by all the caring people on this site. Sunshine, Thanks for your blessings, they mean alot coming from you. With all your losses you still are caring enough to reach out to others. I am impressed by your strength. ItsIronic, thank you for your good wishes. Rob47, A little guilt does go a long way, always a handy tool when you're a Mum too! I didn't notice any difference when I switched from 21mg to 14mg to 7mg. I was expecting to, but it didn't happen. You'll do great I'm sure. Kaiser, I guess you and I have to let our spouses know when we need a boost in the boasting department! For some reason, even though we have been together forever, my hubby can't yet read my mind! There can still be good times ahead even though the honeymoon is over.There is something very comforting in knowing you can always count on someone. Just like I want to be able to count on being a non-smoker. Jan, you must sleep like the dead if you didn't hear me screaming my head off. Must get you an alarm! lol. You'll have to ask Lady first to borrow that broom as she has been very busy with it lately keeping us all in line. There must be something in this almost spring air that is affecting our common sense. Oh Well, we are all still here to tell the tale so that's the main thing. Thanks for rolling out of bed to give me a chuckle. You're a great asset to this site and my quit. NSA girl, you're right, we have to focus on just how huge this accomplishment is. We have worked to hard to start again. Cincere, I am really looking forward to the day when I can say I won. I imagine there must be such a sense of peace to finally be totally free of this weight I have had on my shoulders for all these years. I want to get to that place. I WILL. Chris, I do feel better today because of all the great people, advice and my own determination. Thanks. Groovekitty, Screaming meemies is a great phrase! I will hang tight, I want to get to the beach and get loaded. lol. You will get there ahead of me so make sure to save me a good spot. Close enough to the water to dig my toes in the sand. [color=Red]redrosie[/color] [B]My Milage:[/B] [B]My Quit Date: [/B] 1/1/2006 [B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 74 [B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:

Funny story!

I think it's time to invite someone else from the building over to your office for a coffee soon. Perhaps that morning all the cans of spray and candles can mysteriously disappear. ;p [color=Red]redrosie[/color] [B]My Milage:[/B] [B]My Quit Date: [/B] 1/1/2006 [B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 74 [B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 1,799 [B]Amount Saved:[/B] $614.2 [B]Life Gained:[/B] [B]Days:[/B] 7 [B]Hrs:[/B] 7 [B]Mins:[/B] 17 [B]Seconds:[/B] 18

I Made A Promise So Here I Am...Help Please!!

This post is brought to you by a VERY nervous quitter. I will ramble a bit and then sit here very quietly and wait for some tough words to help me get past this rut. I have very strong urges to go and buy a pack of ciggies. I don't know if it is because the "newness" and excitement has worn off, but I seem to have lost my sense of pride in this HUGE accomplishment I have. I will try to explain some of these thoughts and feelings. I seem to be thinking of smoking all the time. My sense of pride has totally deserted me. I am feeling " So what if I smoke?" I see people slipping and sliding on this site so much lately it is making me think "I'm no better than them, I too will "slip" soon." I know that only I am responsible for my quit, but it does affect how strong I feel about my own quit.I have seen many people come and go over these 70 plus days and it makes me sad and scared. I'm not getting all the praise from my family like I did at the start so that also makes it feel not worth the hard work. I will have to ask for more encouragement from them. I have always needed praise from others to make me feel good about myself. Nasty habit I know, but comes with my horrible upbringing, I am working on that. My husband goes away to Houston Texas on Monday for 3 days on business and all ready my evil little mind is saying.. Go ahead and smoke while he is gone. I'm so sad over all these thoughts and feelings. I want to be strong. I have had many failures in my life, I don't want this to be another. I want to be a good role model for my kids. They are so proud of me. They are the BEST of all the good things in my life. I am very emotional right now, so I will stop, but I will not go get cigarettes tonight and I will hope to talk to some of you. Your help has been wonderful. [color=Red]redrosie[/color] [B]My Milage:[/B] [B]My Quit Date: [/B] 1/1/2006 [B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 73 [B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 1,772 [B]Amount Saved:[/B] $605.9 [B]Life Gained:[/B] [B]Days:[/B] 7 [B]Hrs:[/B] 4 [B]Mins:[/B] 37 [B]Seconds:[/B] 5

I Made A Promise So Here I Am...Help Please!!

Thanks Janet, you made me chuckle when I read Victorias Secret as a reward. It may be a reward for me , but a fright for my husband. lol. No the ol' weight gain hasn't been that bad YET. Sheila, Lady and Butterfly, thanks for your thoughts on the patch. You are probably all right, but I am so fearful I will buy cigs tomorrow instead. I sure hope I wake up on a more positive side of the bed in the morning. I hope the sun will be shining, birds singing and me driving with the windows down right past the corner store. [color=Red]redrosie[/color] [B]My Milage:[/B] [B]My Quit Date: [/B] 1/1/2006 [B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 73 [B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 1,774 [B]Amount Saved:[/B] $605.9 [B]Life Gained:[/B] [B]Days:[/B] 7 [B]Hrs:[/B] 4 [B]Mins:[/B] 49 [B]Seconds:[/B] 38

I Made A Promise So Here I Am...Help Please!!

Thanks Lana, you have always had such nice things to say to me. A little kindness can go a long way when you are feeling low so thank you I really appreciate it. All you Ladies are being such a great help. It is so nice to have you all here when I need you. Can I have some more thoughts on going on the patch again. I really am thinking it may be my lifeline, but I don't want it to turn into my pacifier. [color=Red]redrosie[/color] [B]My Milage:[/B] [B]My Quit Date: [/B] 1/1/2006 [B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 73 [B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 1,773 [B]Amount Saved:[/B] $605.9 [B]Life Gained:[/B] [B]Days:[/B] 7 [B]Hrs:[/B] 4 [B]Mins:[/B] 46 [B]Seconds:[/B] 31

I Made A Promise So Here I Am...Help Please!!

Thanks Lady, you always have such sweet words of encouragement. I know that this will pass, like all the other bad spots have, but it sure sucks until then! How can I get the pride I once felt back. It sounds as if my honeymoon period is over and the real "marriage" has begun. You know.... the wake up and see the same face everyday period, where you say "Is this it?" lol. Just me trying to joke my way out of a scary situation yet again.... nervous laughter perhaps? I will hang on for tonight. One minute at a time, one hour at a time right? It's what got me through the first 2 weeks. Must remember this. [color=Red]redrosie[/color] [B]My Milage:[/B] [B]My Quit Date: [/B] 1/1/2006 [B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 73 [B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 1,773 [B]Amount Saved:[/B] $605.9 [B]Life Gained:[/B] [B]Days:[/B] 7 [B]Hrs:[/B] 4 [B]Mins:[/B] 44 [B]Seconds:[/B] 21

I Made A Promise So Here I Am...Help Please!!

Hi Penguin thanks. Acceptance is a good word for some of the things I'm feeling. I need to accept the fact that this is a HARD struggle, that may take a long while. It is not something that will just magically make you able to say " I am now a non-smoker who will NEVER smoke again". I have heard too many people with years under their belts start smoking again. Damn this addiction, I wish I had never started. We thought we were so cool back then. "Look how grown up we are" What a bunch of bullyouknowwhat that was. Now I am a grown up having to deal with all these "cool" consequences. I think I may be a little angry. Way better than apathy, I need to fire myself up again. Get angry at this horrible addiction and take control of my quit life!!! [color=Red]redrosie[/color] [B]My Milage:[/B] [B]My Quit Date: [/B] 1/1/2006 [B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 73 [B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 1,773 [B]Amount Saved:[/B] $605.9 [B]Life Gained:[/B] [B]Days:[/B] 7 [B]Hrs:[/B] 4 [B]Mins:[/B] 45 [B]Seconds:[/B] 11