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When I told my husband of my plans to quit drinking (for now), I did say that I felt like I've been drinking too much lately, plus I want to lose weight. He said I haven't gained an ounce as far as he can tell. He is always very complimentary of my looks and we too are very good friends. I think he knows I've been uncomfortable with my drinking, I've said things in the past about how I don't want our daughter to be exposed to my drinking like I was to my moms as a child. I think there's a good possibility that he's concerned about my drinking too, but he hasn't said anything about it.
I want to stick to abstaining on the long weekend but I fear I may not be able to. Right now I'm feeling the effects of withdrawal....it's not severe, just very annoying. It's always been on day four that I start to drink again because the tension gets bad. I am going to have to be extra strong tonight and really keep myself busy so I don't pour a drink or pop a can of beer.
I know all too well about the morning vomiting, that really sucks eh? It's probably been a couple months since I've done that, but it sure is a horrible feeling. In fact I wasted an entire vacation day the last time it happened. I threw up then laid in bed most of the day to kill the hangover so I could drink again that night. That is pathetic!
I know if we had another drink it would lead us back to why we joined this site in the first place. It can be a vicious cycle. I knew when I quit smoking for the umpteenth time, that I could NOT have just one, I always started to smoke again. This time i beat it! I should know this about drinking too right? Then why am I not thinking like that? Why am I finding this harder than quitting smoking?
I love the new name, and the earrings! I was thinking this morning while getting ready for work, that I can get through the long weekend without drinking...I'll just stick to my club soda cocktails. I told my husband last night that I'm not drinking for now because I have been drinking too much lately and because I want to lose weight. I stepped on the scale today and lost a pound since the weekend, which makes me happy. Perhaps that's also a good motivation to refrain from drinking on the long weekend, but man would it be nice to have a few drinks and relax with some friends. I feel torn about what to do. I know the right thing is to not drink, but that evil demon inside me is saying "one night of drinks won't hurt, it's all in the name of having a good time". If I make it to Saturday, that will be one week for me. Friday will be a serious struggle, I always had way too much to drink on Fridays. That was my "reward" for getting through a week of hell at work. It became a regular occurrence to go for dinner with friends and get loaded every Friday night. If my husband was working, and my friend was unavailable, I'd go buy a cask of Sauvignon Blanc and get drunk at home by myself. how sad is that?
