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11 years ago 0 +0 / -0 616

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Hi Hitting50......first off I want to say your response to me brought me to tears. You said so many things that really hit home for me. I thank you immensely for that. You are so right about how,we can look successful on the outside but hide a monster (demon for me) on the inside. Your suggestions of facials and massages are wonderful and these are things I do take advantage of. In fact today I have a massage appt. In keeping up appearances, the new non-surgical facial rejuvenations are my way of staying young. Having said that, it doesn't seem to be hiding the fact that alcohol is changing how I look. I spend a fortune to look young and a fortune to screw it all up with booze. How stupid is that? I see the little broken blood vessels developing at the sides of my nose, these are the telltale signs of an alcoholic. I can see my skin changing, the hardened look is starting. Not to mention that what was once a 6 pack of abs, pardon the expression, has now become flabby and an embarrassment to me. So perhaps my vanity will help to motivate me to quit as well as the sheer desire to sober again.

When I drink it's either with my best friend, my husband or sometimes just by myself. My husband doesn't drink often, I see my best friend usually once a week, the rest of the time I drink alone. Finding things to keep me busy enough to

not drink will be difficult at first but I will have to figure it out. You have a great deal of wisdom and you seem determined in your decision to quit. I need to find that determination within myself to be strong enough to do this. One day at a time is probably a better way to do this rather than saying I'll never drink again, or perhaps it will have to one hour at a time. All I can say for now is I will do my best to not drink today. If you can suggest anything to help me get through the first few days, I'd really appreciate it. You've opened my eyes and I thank you from the bottom of my heart.

11 years ago 0 +0 / -0 616

New to this site

Wow Hitting50.....it's amazing how much we mirror each other. I am beginning to feel more and more that I can do this. I think we could be great support for each other. Like you the weekends are very difficult for me to not drink. I did have a few last night, but woke up this morning feeling like crap and pissed at myself for drinking last night, then I read your post and I felt like someone out there truly knows what I'm going through, and how I'm feeling. I had my massage this morning and when I got home I got doing laundry then had to run out to Home Depot for paint and finishing supplies for the bathroom. I haven't started working in there yet, my husband is doing the last part of the tile work, but I did go outside and did a lot of clean up in my flower beds and trimmed a lot of my shrubs. I sat down and had a cold club soda with a twist of lime.

My best friend is planning to stop over this afternoon, she is my drinking buddy. I have already decided what I'm going to tell her when I refuse a drink. I'll tell her that I'm slowing it down for a bit because I want to lose a few lbs. Rewarding yourself is a great way to celebrate your success of being one week drink free. I like the 6 month plan of having the blood vessels removed. I got my first and only tattoo at 44 years old...not ready to get rid of it yet...lol.

My daughter is 9 years old. She is the light of my life. I want to do this for her and for my health. I may be 46 years old but I don't want to look like a 46 year old or someone even older. I've put too much money into staying young looking, booze is just blowing it away.

I will be thinking of you this afternoon, I know you can make it through the day without booze. My club soda is my drink of choice today. There is booze in my house, but I'll remain strong and not have any. I won't begrudge my husband a drink, just because I'm trying to live a sober life. I too will check in later today to see how you're holding up, and let you know how it's going for me.

11 years ago 0 +0 / -0 616

The right people and the wrong people

This rings very true for me Sonia, in my case it's my mom and my sister. My sister was always sucking the life out of me. We had a toxic relationship, she was always very jealous of me and it turned into accusations of my niceties

always having an ulterior motive. In my opinion, she's a paranoid freak. My mom was never a good mom, she is also an alcoholic, she was always out partying when we were kids and I became the mom in the family. We had a good relationship up til a month or so ago. Maybe it was actually just a superficial relationship. A blowout between us lead to all my childhood anger coming back and now I just don't care to have any kind of relationship with her. At this point in my life, I don't want either of them involved in my life.

11 years ago 0 +0 / -0 616

The right people and the wrong people

Well I think my determination to NOT become my mother was the driving force in my ability to always be responsible....perhaps to a fault. I never wanted children because as far as I was concerned I already raised two by taking care of my younger siblings. Now that I do have a child of my own, I am determined to make sure she is raised by a loving mother and father who won't abandon her. My only fault in my conviction is that I am an alcoholic...thank God I'm not the type of drunk that my mother is, but regardless, an alcoholic is an alcoholic no matter how they lead their lives. Forgive me for calling my mom a drunk, but that is how I see her, she is an irresponsible person and has done many horrible things over the years. I have no respect for her.

11 years ago 0 +0 / -0 616

cravings

Hi want to succeed......I read online that L Glutamine aids in the withdrawal symptoms from alcohol. I've been taking it for about a month, but can't say for sure of it works since I continued to drink. I had googled "natural aids for alcohol withdrawal symptoms" and L Glutamine was listed. Perhaps you can find other remedies on google. Good luck and stay strong.

11 years ago 0 +0 / -0 616

New to this site

That's awesome that you abstained last night, it must feel so good to have made it to one week eh? I didnt drink either, I kept very busy with yardwork and my body is feeling it today...lol. My husband took a lot longer than expected with the tile work in the bathroom so I didn't get around to priming it yet. I'm hoping possibly today I can finally do that. I was able to get some cleaning done in the rec room, but still have lots to do in there.

My friend didn't end up coming over yesterday which made it easier for me to abstain. My husband made himself a cocktail after dinner and offered to make one for me and surprisingly, it was pretty easy to decline.

If I can't get into the bathroom to get it primed today, I'll be in the same boat as you...not a lot to do. I'll have to find things to do to keep busy. The weather isn't the greatest today but I suppose I could wash my car and do some puttering in the house.

You most definitely should go get yourself some earring today....one week sober is a great reason to treat yourself. I hope and pray I can reward myself next weekend for being sober for a week. Right now I'll be happy with one day.

Let me know what kind of earrings you bought, I'm a huge fan of bling!

11 years ago 0 +0 / -0 616

New to this site

Club soda is a great choice, a twist of lime and/or a splash of cranberry adds a nice touch and it gives you the sense that you're having a cocktail without the ill effects.

I managed to stay distracted the entire day. I started off with cooking a large pot of sauce and meatballs this morning, finished up the laundry, did some housecleaning then was able to prime the bathroom. I baked muffins after I finished the priming and by the time I finished all that, it was time to cook dinner. I will admit that just as I was gearing up to prime the bathroom, the first thought in my head was "I can have a nice drink after I'm finished". I quickly realized that I was not going to have any alcohol and made myself a club soda and lime. Keep telling myself this is all for the good of my health, my weight and most importantly, no negative impact on much daughter. I am finding it a bit rough but I can tough it out.

Hope you enjoy your evening and if the wine isn't so great...all the more reason to refuse it. There's nothing worse than crappy wine. I love wine....way too much unfortunately. I look forward to hearing how you made out this evening, and if you chose the club soda :)

11 years ago 0 +0 / -0 616

Hello

Hi Tahmet...I wanted to ask you how it is that you're able to go for lunch during the work day, have a drink or two, go back to work and function the rest of the day without anyone noticing you may be under the influence, or smell alcohol on you? Are you not afraid that you're putting your job at risk? I ask this because I had a co worker who drank at lunch times, in fact I think she would sneak out to her car throughout the day for a hit, it was finally figured out and after many attempts of trying to get her to seek treatment, she was relieved of her job.

How are you making out with trying not to drink at lunch time? It's hard to change old habits, I'm desperately trying, but I'm only on day two of abstinence and it's not easy. Like you, I don't want my alcoholism to affect my daughter...she's 9. I realized today when I made myself a virgin cocktail and she said to me, "you mean you're not having any rum in it?". That was a huge slap in the face for me. All the time I was drinking, I thought I was being so smart and keeping it hidden from her. Boy was I wrong. I hope you find that this site will be of help to you. I joined over a month ago and tried to just control my drinking, but I recently realized I need to abstain. whatever path you find yourself on, I wish you all the best and success in your quest to abstain from alcohol.

11 years ago 0 +0 / -0 616

Starting over

I kept waking up through the night last night, and every time I did, I was thinking about whether or not I was going to have a hangover in the morning. I didn't drink a drop since Friday, I think I'm just so accustomed to up with a hangover in the mornings, my brain expects it every day. It feels good to be going to work without feeling crappy, I just hope that the usual bull that goes on doesn't drive me to drink tonight.....fingers crossed.

Congrats for making through another night without alcohol....you're doing great! Time to get that reward today.

11 years ago 0 +0 / -0 616

New to this site

I can totally relate to the pissy mood. When I was baking muffins yesterday, my daughter was on her laptop looking at a clothing website. She kept calling me over and over again to have a look at some of the things she liked. Each time, my patience level dropped a little bit more until I finally told her to stop, that I was too busy cooking and baking to look at what was interesting her. I felt bad later on, but the nattering was driving me nuts. Then my husband kept asking me where this tool was, and that tool is.....well holy crap I don't use the damn tools, how am I supposed to know? Ok my rant is over, today is a new day and one more day to get through without drinking.

How was your walk this morning? I wish I had your drive to get up and get moving so early in the day. I rise early, I just don't feel too motivated because I dread going to work every day.

Enjoy your day, I'm proud of you for holding tough last night and not having a drink. we will touch base again later today. I still want to hear about the earrings you purchase.

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