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15 years ago 0 +0 / -0 538

Lousy Day

HEy Karla,

I really wish I had something helpful to tell you. My brain isn't fully awake and I find being up past 7 am, well, no my thing... I just wanted to let you know though that we are here for you. I remember having this aweful feeling that I was in a deep black pit and I was not ever going to see the light again! I remember thinking, why am I still breathing, shouldn't the pain kill me? I remember thinking it would be just as well. And then, with work, patience, time, it got better. It was a bit up and down, getting better. So the downs were scary and discouraging. But it all taught me a lot about love, life, myself... Mostly, it got better. This too shall pass. I know, in the meantime, while you are in the dark, it feels horrible and forever. But it is not forever. With the help of the people here, the help of this program, and eventually a therapist, you will get better. Mostly, you courage and you strength and you courage will help you through. So hang in there. We are here for you. And please feel free to vent with us anytime.

15 years ago 0 +0 / -0 538

Diva news...

Hey guys,

Whoever came up with the idea of waking up early before dawn to get ready to go to work before the sun rises, was a sadist!

As you can tell I am not a morning person. Not by any stretch of the imagination. So here I am having woken up at 10 past 6 am! AM! It is dark and it gives me the jitters. I am tired which makes me more anxious. I have my first big day with tons of new students. I will actually be leaving in the dark!

I had a few PAs in the last 3 days. This led to a bit more meds being taken. But I guess that is ok. I also have been waking up in sweat. I mean drenched in it. I have been having some funky nightmares. One of the PAs I woke up to. Now that was fun...Had not done that in a while.

Oddly enough though, I will get up from this PC soon. I will get ready. I will go to work. And I know I will be just fine. I am not only going to get through this day but I will do it well. I am strong.

Even having the PAs were just not as bad...I guess I could say it was taking the meds that helped, but I think it is just me getting through them better. That and the fact, it didn't bother me. I don't feel the need to anticipate the next attack. I think I am making peace with this disorder and moving on. Who knows. Anyway, gotta run. The sadists got me and I need to go to the bus in the dark!

Later guys and take care.

15 years ago 0 +0 / -0 538

Food fear...

Wow Karla!

Congratulations on all your successes! Woohoo!

15 years ago 0 +0 / -0 538

New to the forum and anxiety, looking for support!

Hey Jamie,

I just wanted to drop in and say hello and welcome to the forums. The program here is really good so I suggest you give it a go. I am also glad you are going for CBT therapy. Hang in there, it really can get better. There was a time where I had 10+ PAs a day and could not leave my house, now I work and just finished a university degree! Things can get better I assure you. What helped me was therapy, support of friends and loved ones, exercise helps also (came to that one late though lol) the program here helped a ton. I still have a ways to go, but I have come a very long way already. It really does get better. And remember, this too shall pass!

15 years ago 0 +0 / -0 538

Diva news...

Hey Faryal,

How are you today? Thank you for the reply. Yes, I do feel I am gaining control on the PAs and it feels great. I am not so afraid of them anymore. It takes the power they have over me away. Because in reality, the PAs only have the power me that I allow them to have. I feel much more confident now in my abilities to deal with PAs and get through my days and over obstacles. It is a nice feeling. Oh and thanks for the pat on the back!

Hey Joe,

"A bumpy ride on a rough road" I love that. You have a way with expressions lol. Yeah, the decision making and the cleaning out the good ol' attic is helping although it is tiresome lol. I guess I am getting to know myself and what I need and want. Mostly I am learning to trust myself that I can take care of myself and get through things well :)

As for the hubby you are right. These things take time. But there are some positive signs and that is something to hold on to. And yes we do love and appreciate each other when we are not fighting

. His willingness to keep trying gives me great hope.

YEah, Doctor who. I used to watch it as a kid. Became a complete addict when it got revamped in 2005. Love the 9th and 10th Doctor. Not sure which i like best, they were both great. In 2010, we get the 11th Doctor. Intrigues to see if I will like him lol. Doctor who is so great. And yeah, not everybody knows I am a sci-fi dork but I am lol. And hey, glad to see I am not the only proud dork here lol!

As for the anxiety, you put it exactly right. More anxiety, better coping skills, less fear, more acceptance, overall more well-being. I am glad to see you are a survivor not a victim. I feel the same now. I am a survivor, a warrior, I am strong. As for you changing your frame of thought, I think it is wonderful and am very proud of you for all you have conquered and accomplished for yourself. And hey, I am right out there with you taking on life by a storm. And hey, I pick hope too! Good choice!

And yes this too shall pass! We will be ok! Cheers to both of us Joe!

15 years ago 0 +0 / -0 538

Lousy Day

Hey Cm,

So how are you doing today?

15 years ago 0 +0 / -0 538

Mood Boosters

Walking helps, especially when walking with someone like a friend.

I like dancing (horribly I might add) to loud music in my living room

Eating chocolate I love but don't do often because of the caffeine (oh and the fact my behind makes me pay for it).

I love music

Singing

Napping, napping is good

Reading a good book

watching a good tv show (Love Doctor Who)

15 years ago 0 +0 / -0 538

Goals for 2009

Ok, my goals for 2009:

1. Health- I want to eat better and sleep better.

Mental Health- I want to keep challenging my negative thinking patterns and clearing out the cobwebs.

2. Fitness- I want to start yoga again, walk more and dance more. Mostly I would love to have more stamina and feel less tired all the time. Less winded would be good too.

3. Financial- I want to pay off some debts and get a few savings.

4. School- I want to go back to do my doctorates and do it well.

5. Love- I ant to continue couples counseling and fix things with my hubby.

So those are my goals for 2009 and beyond. I will take it one little baby step at a time and see where I end up!

15 years ago 0 +0 / -0 538

stressful days :(

Hey Karla,

I think Josie gave you some fantastic advice. I echo her on the fact it is your birthday so do what feels good to you! Make it a fun day for yourself on your terms!

Hang in there Karla, it does get better!

Wish I had something better to offer you, but we are here for you. This too shall pass!

15 years ago 0 +0 / -0 538

Starting Tai Chi

I did Tai Chi in college and it was very nice. I think it is a great idea! Let us know how it goes.

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