Tutti, my mother was diabetic. My dad always felt sorry for her because she would cry, sit and just cry because she wanted candy, cookies, cakes and doughnuts. He felt so sorry for her that he kept bringing these things home to make her happy. When she lost one of her legs, it didn't help. She cried, he felt sorry, he bought more and she ate more. When she lost her other leg, it didn't change anything. She cried, he felt sorry and the goodie basket was never empty. Finally she died. He cried and I felt sorry.
Food is worse than cigarettes. Which is why I have been thin all my adult life. Since I was 20 years old when I went from a 22 to a 4, and stayed there until not long ago. I am the gym rat and have been all my life until I quit smoking and lost energy and enthusiasim. Now, I'm starting to go back, and it is HARD not the work outs, but getting the interest going to where it was. Not smoking has taken up so much energy, thinking, time, and resources that there is little left for anything else. I could sit and concentrate on not having a cigarette for hours. Really hours. I can't go for a walk, makes the craving worse, can't take a shower, makes the craving worse. Can't pet the dog, fer kryin out loud, it makes me want a cig, not to mention watching tv or reading a book. So, for hours I would just sit, concentrate, watch the clock. That phase is getting to be over now, and I'm able to expand my horizons a little bit. When I looked in the mirror, it was like seeing another person. Fat, in disarray, no makeup (putting on makeup was a big trigger). I look like a fat bag lady.
Not only quitting smoking, but now my entire life has to be rebuilt! I just don't want to be told I'm as thin as ever. I want to be told that I will get as thin as I ever was. May as well tell me I still have black hair, that's been gone for ten years!
[B]My Milage:[/B]
[B]My Quit Date: [/B] 1/27/2007
[B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 85
[B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 2,568
[B]Amount Saved:[/B] $850
[B]Life Gained:[/B]
[B]Days:[/B] 11 [B]Hrs:[/B] 6 [B]Mins:[/B] 54 [B]Seconds:[/B] 24
