Mimi, Hi. I didn't get past the first hour of my first quit day before I smoked about nine cigarettes during the whole day. I was ashamed and angry at myself... I came online in the evening or the next morning and confessed that I'd not even struggled a little bit and, yes, I got my beak smacked good and hard by the members but ALL ended their posts to me by saying that I was to get back up on the horse right away and to stop whining and rationalizing away my "slip" ( my absolute failure to even fight a little bit on that first day!)
So, I did, I stayed online most of Day 2 and read and drank icy water and did deep breathing, and listened to the wheezing in my lungs. I think I ate enough candies to give my diabetes a complete freak-out... I got into the bathroom and nit-picked every little beard-clipping off the basin and the floor that had accumulated for a week of laissez faire. I drained the batteries of my remote by switching channels all night until I finally dropped off to sleep.
So, let it go... you're back in control and it is all about control. Let those alarm bells ring out loudly in your mind when you find yourself listening to that little swine, Smokemybutt, and turn away from those filthy temptations immediately.
Strobz, Hi. Keep on your quit and, yes, cry your eyes out for the massive slips. Don't join that spurious club of people who brag about how many times they've 'tried to give it up'! That look of half-a**ed "shame" on their smiling faces...I've done it myself and I can see what a lot of codswallop that was... the junkie in me specialised in that kind of self-mockery. Keep reading in here and keep posting your news about shakey days and hours and minutes... we're here to help each other stop and stay stopped.
Patrick
[B]My Milage:[/B]
[B]My Quit Date: [/B]1/17/2008
[B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 16
[B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 400
[B]Amount Saved:[/B] $180.00
[B]Life Gained:[/B]
[B]Days:[/B] 3 [B]Hrs:[/B] 1 [B]Mins:[/B] 46 [B]Seconds:[/B] 7
