Hi Marie - Thanks for the belated birthday greetings! It was a fun day.
Sometimes we feel like such a witch that it begins to be comical. I tried to make a joke out of it after a while...I hung a sign around my neck with yarn that said something like: I'm sorry for the thousandth time...but I will not give in! so deal with it...
My husband didn't think it was so funny at first but as we went along he began to see the humor. I just was so tired of being a tape recorded - I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry...blah, blah, blah. After a while it didn't even sound real and the truth of the matter was it probably wasn't. He was and is still smoking and I was so mad about that - but I had to understand that this is my life and my quit and I am the only one who needs to understand and deal with it.
I promise it does get better. You are in the midst of the beginning of a great way of life. You are learning more about yourself than you ever have known before. We need to learn how to replace angry outburst with another outlet. It's very hard! But please tell your husband how hard this is and ask for his continuing understanding and forgiveness. It's an emotional ride - full of ups and downs. My favorite illustration is one of the ocean. The waves come into the shore...there are some waves that we jump over easily, some waves we have to dive in and come up on the other side...and then there are some waves that are so strong that we are knocked down...but we get up and start all over again - after all - we don't want to get out of the water over a few strong waves. So don't lose your quit over those strong waves...it will get better I promise!
Celebrate Your Freedom!
Island Girl
[B]My Milage:[/B]
[B]My Quit Date: [/B] 2/21/2006
[B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 133
[B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 1,335
[B]Amount Saved:[/B] $266
[B]Life Gained:[/B]
[B]Days:[/B] 15 [B]Hrs:[/B] 14 [B]Mins:[/B] 0 [B]Seconds:[/B] 43
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Quit Meter
$1,716,562.50
Amount Saved
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Quit Meter
Days: 5682
Hours: 12
Minutes: 22
Seconds: 4
Life Gained
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Quit Meter
45775
Smoke Free Days
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Quit Meter
1,373,250
Cigarettes Not Smoked
