I am overwhelmed by the responses to this thread.I cannot say thank you enough. Martha you are right, that is what i wanted to do, is to dull the pain with smoking. Thats how it always was right?
Just that people took the time to respond to this means a lot to me, it made me cry but for a good reason not a bad reason.
I just went to my quit smoking session at the doctors, and the nurse was really nice and really fantastic. She said that most people where i am at now, have relapsed and that the second month is she thinks is a tougher part of the quit.
Today and last night I have thought about smoking a lot. But I will certainly not giving in to it, and i am upset that after three weeks, I am again thinking those junkie thoughts. It is as if those thought associations, are all around me, drinking coffee, sitting down, relaxing watching tv, every single thing I associate with smoking is sitting there right there - in front of me right now. Its a crafty demon, I have been strong against it - and I was determined, but now right now I dont feel like i have the energy to give it. As I have other things to think about, I almost want to go back onto auto pilot... and that is where the crafty nicotine demon wants to step in.
Thank you for your support. You give make my reasons for quitting bigger than my reasons for relapsing.
[B]My Milage:[/B]
[B]My Quit Date: [/B] 6/12/2006
[B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 22
[B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 565
[B]Amount Saved:[/B] �165
[B]Life Gained:[/B]
[B]Days:[/B] 1 [B]Hrs:[/B] 23 [B]Mins:[/B] 50 [B]Seconds:[/B] 14
