Angelic....truly, both of these things may be true.....you might have been covering up some of your dislike by just hitting yourself with a jolt of nicotine now and then.....or it may mostly be due to just the stress of your quit at present.
Take your anger in hand....admit it....tell others that you are currently having a go at just being pissed at the world in general...assure them it's mostly due to quitting smoking and it will pass in time....ask them to bear with you for the present. Then stick to yourself if that will help....and be GOOD to yourself! Rewards, plenty of rest, eating properly, etc. You are at a pivitol point in quitting. one month is a hurdle of sorts.....the glamour of quitting has faded.....smokers don't want to hear about it OR acknowledge it, non-smokers think you should be over it.....and here you are...mad, tired, perhaps a mite depressed...still having a struggle with emotions.
Personally, I turned into a super ***** a few weeks into quitting. I was mad, it wasn't fair that others were still smoking, still others thought I had done nothing noteworthy at all! I guess I was still subconsciencly wishing I could smoke? and that was anger provoking.
Take the anger and direct it at the REAL culprit....the addiction....Ole Nic....the Junky. He is working on your emotional stability hard as he can.....anger plays in his favor....you have to take the reins and learn to diffuse it the "instant" you see it start to sparkle. You may not be able to totally avoid this person, but you can learn ways to bypass the emotions that you relate to her.
Get busy when you feel it coming....take a rest room break....get an icey drink...splash your face....move around and breath deeply and let yourself 'feel' your control come back....insert some humor into the situation if you can
I know you can do this with just a bit of practice. and believe me, your control will improve with time, also the anger will begin to subside. It's a fairly ordinary symptom actually.
Hang tough.... and kick butt (and not of the coworker YIKES! LOL)
katy
[B]My Milage:[/B]
[B]My Quit Date: [/B] 1/4/2002
[B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 1550
[B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 62,022
[B]Amount Saved:[/B] $8525
[B]Life Gained:[/B]
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Hours: 0
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