There are times I wish I never had kids. Its not that I dont "love" them, but I am finding it increasingly difficult to be their "Dad". I can not handle the stress. Things for me were so incredibly different, I cant support them financially, I cant stand it when they "argue". Until this past summer I thought my teen years were "normal" but I find out now that they were not even close to "normal". I hate what I have become. I have problems sorting my past out, wish I could forget the "hell" , thinking about suicide just 8 months after being sick never understood where those feelings came from. why me??? what did I do to derserve this HELL???