Hi Everyone,
Thank you so much for you're replies. The nausea is a little better today, just no appetite which I dont mind but I get light-headed, the anxiety effects my whole body but my stomach seems to be the most vunerable I have noticed, it hits hard.
I will have to get some of that ginger tea Samantha, I do not have any I have ginger ale which may help, and I will check with my nurse if I could take Gravol with my benzo, I see her Tuesday, and I am very nervous about going, I hope I can make it, its farther than I usually travel but I have not been there in almost four months and I know I have to go, just nervous about it, I dont know WHY I get nervous about seeing my therapist and nurse I mean they are there to help me right? maybe I feel they are not and that is what is bothering me, I thought I would better by now, I am better, but no where where I should be.
I am trying to "let go" of what happened to my son but its very very hard, I keep reliving it which I know is not good, I mean I keep thinking "whats next" and the worst thing to do is too dwell on it, it feeds the anxiety something fierce, but I know in the future things are going to happen and I HAVE to get stronger! I liked what you said Sunny, what you're Father said that made me feel better and I know its true, the naps do help me and that is one thing I dont care what people say you are right, if a nap helps we should do it and not feel bad, I believe sleep rejuvanates the immune system and relaxes a person, I probably sleep too much, but it feels SO good for my brain to shut off and not worry, its like my mini-escape from life.
I am hoing the body symptoms go away, I had a bad night, I kept coughing up phelm all night and coughing, the weather is funky here so I hope its just allergies or something. I know what you mean about vomiting Davit, its not the vomiting that scares me, sometimes I actually feel better after vomiting, but sometimes blood comes out of my throat or tummy and that scares the heck out of me! I hate nausea too, I am trying to eat light today, maybe some rice or dry noodles till its better.
This will not set me back will it? The worry and stress about my son? I hope not I have worked so hard and I dont want to go backwards again, I feel like its "rising" again and its scaring me, especially the appt with my nurse I am so nervous about that I dont want to go and I have too, I wish she would do phone sessions, I would still pay her, that would help me alot.
I hope this passes and I can go forward again. I smoke too much yesterday because of the stress and I am paying for it today, coughing and wheezing, I am so mad at myself for that, I am trying to quit but my therapist says wait till the anxiety calms down, I guess he does not want me to do too much at once or something, thank you all for being there for me it means so much, I hope and pray I can calm down and go forward.