Hi, It's Shari. I was cured of panic attacks, because of this program. I'm having a lot of stress in my life which is causing anxiety. I will go down the list of questions that Ashley posed. 1) The biggest source of stress in my life is my husband (my daughter is second). 2) It's a long term stress. 3) I've reacted to this stress in kindness to my own detriment. 4) My reaction is appropriate to the context. (I am told to feel free to get a job and earn my keep. He makes decisions and I have no say in anything. I have to pay for my pets, my clothes, and my food from the allowance he gives me). 5) I don't think my reaction is helpful to me in the long run. (I just try to keep the peace and make things work). 6) My other reaction is to move in with my parents in Florida and get a part time job. My biggest fear is being homeless and alone when my parents aren't around anymore. I stay and take the control and abuse, for financial security reasons. I've been a housewife and mother my whole life and I've never been financially independent. I'm an artist and it's not really a marketable skill that pays well to support yourself. I raised my daughter to be independent, so marriage is a choice, not that she has to, because she can't take care of herself. (I'll be 50 this year and was raised that you grow up and get married and a man takes care of you). My daughter is so independent that she doesn't keep in touch. No calls, emails or visits. I don't think she would help me when I get old. She said she was determined to be the 100% opposite of me which hurt me to the core. She is more like my first husband's family (I'm in my second marriage). They have the same sleep patterns and are workaholics. I thought my life would be different and that I would never be divorced and my child would visit and keep in touch. My husband was kind and generous when we dated for two years and after we got married he said we weren't going out anymore, because we have to save for the future. My parents love me and I wonder why do I still stay with my husband when his actions speak louder than words. I don't like change and I am afraid and have anxiety about starting my life over in Florida with my parents. I'm not 20. I think sometimes being alone is better than being in a bad marriage, but it's scary. I wish I could find some one who was nice to me, but I don't know if I could trust again. I know I'm in the what if's. I just don't have anyone to talk to about this. I feel alone.