Hi Alex, I just read you're post and my heart goes out too you! I am hoping and praying its a better day for you today, I have had nights like that too I am so glad you settled down and had a good sleep, sleep is so good, the body relaxes so much.
I wanted to tell you about my mom-in-law, she had to go to the hospital for colitis for seven days, she is 88 yrs old so I think they were being cautious, unfortunately, and Davit and I discussed this in another post, he is wonderful, that hospitals do NOT give patients there daily meds, my husband found this out too, the reason I bring this up is my mom-in-law had bad anxiety and shaking because they did NOT give her her ativan, I am just wondering if you were having a little withdrawal? You said you had not taken it for ten days, I hope this makes you feel better, anotherwords the panic you felt was from not having the ativan for ten days, I know cold-turkey is rough, can you wean down on it, like take a half? I do that with my klonopin and a half seems too help and take the edge off somewhat. I do not know I am just taking a guess here.
I so understand what you mean about that tired weak wobbly feeling, been there done that so many times but the good news is that it goes away with rest and sleep, I am so glad you got through it, that is such good news! I hope today is better.
Dont worry about shopping, you have plenty of time before Christmas, Saturday is a busy day for shopping, I am going to buy most of my gifts online this year Alex, OR gift cards, people love them, I am going to try to make it simple for myself, I notice people love those pre-paid gift cards, and you are in and out! Please let me know how you are doing, that is interesting about the eyeball massage, my husband sees a cardioligist too, I am going to let him know so he can talk too his doctor about it. I find a nap helps after a bad night, I hope you are better and I understand.