It's been nearly 18 years since I went to a real one. I had seen a pschycotherapist from around 1995-2004, and then only went sporadically over the last few years. But in talking with my therapist the last 2 visits, she recommended I go to someone who could alter/change my meds if neccesary. My MD has been just giving me the same med that I was on Triavil (amytripuline/perphenazine). Those are for depression and anxiety, but I have read and heard that some of the effects of meds can become null after a while.
I've had these really bad panic attacks over the 6-8 months and think she might be right. They have only been increasing. There have been periods where I hardly have any symptoms, but then they return.
I am and have been doing the best I can to halt the panic attacks, anxieties and depression symptoms (I am sure many of you know thsy symptoms all too well), and I have even been using natural remedies over those years as well, but I think I really need a tune up. Even with all the working out, yoga, eating right and good quality of life, the anxieties still hang around.
I have just been having so much OCD over the fear of mortality. Usually I can hold those anxieties back, but when my OCD and other anxieties get really bad, it's hard to hold the really bad thoughts at bay. I just want regular worries and not worries about having panic attacks or things I cannot control. Sometimes the regular worries are what leads to the panic and anxieties, but it does not have to be that way.
I love my life with my lovely wife and we do so many fun things, but I find these symptoms getting in the way of my life now. Even work is becoming hard with my mind being bogged down with anxieties. Some days I have to take 5 mg of valium just to get through the busy section of my morning at work.
Anyway, just wanted to share my news. I want to get this under control so I can continue to enjoy my life with as little anxiety as possible.
Has anyone who has ever used diazepam found any difference between different generic versions? I used to take the pink ones, but once I switched pharmacies, they started giving me the yellow generic ones. I know they are supposed to be the same, but one never knows.
Thanks for listening,
David
