Well I spoke to my regular doctor's office this morning and left a message for him. He's been my doctor for 17 years. He advised against changing meds right now as long as I can stay stable. I made an appointment for Sept. 1
I am trying something different. Two things, actually. One is that I am back to using the regular valium I had been using before all these bad panic attacks started.
Back in December, I started using the Cigna pharmacy because it was cheaper and they gave you more, but the generic they gave me was yellow and something just did not seem right. I was using it since December. Not a lot until just a few weeks ago when the panic started to get really bad.
So I had my doctor send my new prescription to Walgreens, They use the pink 5 mg. I took one this morning, half at a time within 20 minutes. I was a little shaky when I first got to work, but once I started talking to co workers and then got onto my route, I was doing a lot better.
Now I still had anxious thoughts come and go, but taking half at lunch time helped. The anxious feelings started to come around when I should have eaten lunch. I ate a little later, and by the time I finished I was feeling a lot better.
I also have something I have started taking called Calms Forte. It's a natural product with chamomile and other things to help with tension.
Had little nervousness when I went back to the office tonight to drop off my work, but nothing like last Friday. I was able to keep my cool.
The second thing I am doing is the CBT program. I started reading it again last night and am going to work on it tonight. I know I can get ahead of this cycle and get back to thinking about normal things.
Now the only question is how do I tell the new doctor that I am not filling his prescription without embbarrassing myself? Who knows if I will need to go there in the future, but the while thing just seemed so clinical and I felt like a number.
David