JD,
I'm going to use the "N" word(normal), so beware.
I've been spinning around in the panic cycle, like a rag in a washer the last couple of months, unable to be calm.
What I've had to to, and I see you doing it, is rely on "normal" people around me, who to reduce decisions, and help out. Their input, or just doing something for me, where a bad choice or mistake is irreverible, has helped me,while I try to find a "balance" point.
Finding that equilibrium, with our condition, is temporary, and difficult at the best of times.
Using small steps, and prudent advice, and spreading your demands on your friends, will get you to September and the programme, which should be routine. Hopefully you'll be complaining about petty things in fall like missing home, or being a small fish in a big pond, or the aloofness of the big city, or the competitiveness of the faculty....
JD, it all passes. And if you're in or around Toronto, shouldn't you be at some Caribbean party this weekend worrying about who the designated driver will be when the party finishes monday morning.
That's the kind of worrying that might make your summer something to remember.
But then you'll be back there for a couple of more years, won't you
I can understand why you would choose not to move to Toronto at this time. Toronto will always be an option when you are ready to move and pursue a different path in your life. 
